The Secrets Of Our Love...

The secrets of our love - "When love conquers all."

Death cannot put a stop against love. My love will last through all eternity, even while I sit and rot in my own grave. It will go on. With all of the sins I’ve committed, nothing in the world can prove my love wrong. I find myself looking for reasons as to why I did what I did, but there really aren’t any. We had a short time together, but nevertheless. I treasured every second of it. Every day I wake up feeling nothing but regret for what I’ve done to you. I promise it was not my intention, but it happened and nothing can be done to fix it. Every moment that passes by is a drag. It felt as if time was elapsing by like a hand waving from a train that I want to be on. You should consider yourself lucky that you don’t have to go through this hell like I do and have to think so many things through. There’s only one solution and I have decided it’s the best. I hope you’ll be okay with it. Please don’t be upset with me. I do love you Anastasia, I do and I always will.

Anastasia. The soothing and calm sound of your voice is always chiming in my ears. The way you called for me, and the way I would be of your service in a matter of seconds. I was yours and I would only be yours. Just like how you were mine and you were only supposed to be mine. I wish you would have listened to me. I love you Annie.

Sometimes we know we shouldn't and that’s exactly why we do. That was what I did. A wise person once told me that if you really love someone, you’ll let them go. That was what I did, and that was what you wanted. So how can you possibly be upset with me? I just don’t understand why you would be.

I like to think about the times where we were happy together. Where we were in love and I know there was a time where we most definitely were. You were the rich, elegant beautiful mistress who would gracefully take each step slowly down the stairs as I awaited your arrival in the car. I didn’t have much and you were well aware, yet you accepted me in every way. From the moment I saw you I admired you from afar like a lost puppy waiting to be accepted by an owner. I wanted to be yours and soon enough you would want to be mine. The very first day I sat in the car, waiting to drive you to your destination. The soothing, strong scent of yours that traveled through the air, surrounding us with a luscious aroma. You greeted me with your kind manners and I introduced myself to you as Nicholas. You complimented my outfit which was only a casual red t-shirt with blue jeans. Ever since, I only wore that one outfit and it was just for you. Till this day I’m not sure you noticed why I did that. You did ask, but I shook it off. As I was shy. You exited the car waving with a gentle yet irresistible smile plastered upon your face, revealing those deep dimples engraved in your rosy cheeks. You were so wonderful, yet I was just Nicholas. You were Anastasia. The Anastasia. I could never match. But I knew this was meant to be and we were meant to happen.

What more could you have asked of me? I made an amazing impression upon your parents. They even invited me over for tea in your magnificently large mansion. I remember that day as if it had happened yesterday; you left [accidently/intentionally] leaving your necklace in my car. It was beautiful and it was number one on my priority list to have it returned to you. Unfortunately you weren’t home, but at least that led me to creating a great first impression for your parents. I acted sincere and kind towards them, with the polite manners I was grown up with.  They allowed me to wander upstairs to your room and leave it there. I felt that they had accepted me, that they knew I wasn’t a disappointment.

As I walked into your room and I was astonished by what I was seeing. The large photograph of you displayed on your wall wouldn’t let me peel my eyes off of your lovely face. Your room was you. It was everything I knew you to be. Even though at the time we only knew each other for two weeks I felt like we had known each other a lifetime. I was so intrigued by my thoughts of you that I hadn’t realized were standing right behind me. I turned and there you were, astounded that I was stood immoveable in the middle of your room. You questioned me about my presence, and I just told you the truth as it was. You thanked me for returning your necklace and I nodded shyly walking out of your room and out of your house. My heart was pounding in my chest the beat thudding in my ears. It was a heart-wrenching feeling, to finally have talked to you face to face. You were finally aware that I existed. The eyes that I had fallen for, that didn’t know me yet, now did. You could have easily called me the most ecstatic man on the planet.