After buying the book, they went to milk tea cafe nearby. When buying the milk tea, Aretha realized, that love is to experience.
She has to experience love, not search for it. Her friends, never listen to her. Maybe, she thought,
She's alone even when she's with them.
Her so-called friends. Oh, how she envy Sam for being alone so much.
But, for some reason, she couldn't hate him. She's also wanted to find the ultimate love, and she thought maybe Sam could be the one.
"Hey Sam,"
"Yeah?"
"I want to tell you something."
"Yes?"
"I think, I love you."
Wow, wow, wow. He chugged his tea.
"What? Seriously?"
"Yeah, is it bad?"
"No, no, not the slightest."
"I forgot to mention to you, but I also want to experience the ultimate love. But, I still find it hard to love anything in a pure way."
"But, being alone and being in love are two different things. I'm not sure that can co exist."
"Okay, let's give it a week, and I'll try to explain to you next week on the cafe up hill."
They try to date secretly since then. On break time, they're still both with their friends, but after school hours, they go together.
She had fun she never felt before. She doesn't know, if it's because she never date anyone, or is it Sam. She thought, Sam is her cure for everything.
That's when she finally tells him next week on the cafe upon the hill.
"I finally realize something."
"What?"
The subtleness. The chemistry. The purity.
The love they both felt when they're becoming friends. He loves her very much because of her beauty and kindness.
Across this 3 months, she always thought, that talking to him feels different. She never realize that each day, she fell in love more and more to him.
And they began dating, and they told everyone that. Since then, they always go on trips together, and she never forget the first time she realize she fell in love.
It was when she got hit by boys. About 2 months ago.
"Yo, Aretha. Wanna go see our team play?"
"No, no, no. You have to see our basketball team first!"
"Hey Aretha, here I got a ticket to the movies."
"Hey Aretha!"
"Yo Aretha!"
All at the same damn time.
Her head felt dizzy, and that's when she realized, she saw Sam reading a book alone. She saw how peaceful he is, and decided, she wanted to try being alone.
She observed his behaviour, and since they sat together, she always try to talk to him.
She never realize her feelings of love then.
They both got married about 10 years later. They have two girls, one resembles Aretha, and one looks like Sam. They all are a happy family.
Until their girls is about entering puberty, and the hate came towards their dad. He felt sad, but Aretha told him, this was normal.
Until the girls turned 17, and they realized, they love someone. Aretha wanted to give advice to them.
"You know, girls, you must experience love. You can never look for it, search for it, or even buy it."
"But Mom, What should we really do?"
"You got to try to be alone."
"What?"
"That's when I got to know your father."
She then told stories how she and Sam met and slowly fell in love with each other. Sam came home and saw the girls and said, "hi girls! Honey! What are you guys up to?"
"Jeez dad! I never knew you were such a player! Hahahahaa"
"What? What did you tell them honey?"
"Hahahaha let's see."
Aretha continued,
"Just the ultimate love, I guess."
"What's ultimate love mom?"
Sam said, "oh so, you finally found it huh?"
"Yeah. Hey girls, wanna go to the cafe up hill this weekend?"
"Yeah! I love that place!"
"Hmm"
"What is it Joan?"
"Chris asked me to go out."
"WHAT?"
"WHAT~"
"WHAT?!"
All said what with different intent.
Maybe, if she turn back about ten years ago, when she walk together with Sam in the metropolitan city. Maybe she would go back to when they go to the bookstore. Or maybe, she wanted to go back to when she first saw him, reading alone.
She knew, she find true love. No, not true love.
The ultimate love. And she knew, with Sam, she can both feel alone, and feel love at the same time.
She would never trade it with a buzzilion diamond.
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Alone, With 1000 Feelings And Reasons Why
RomanceAretha searched the feeling of loneliness. She always surrounded by her so-called friends, but she never felt anything pure. Until she found someone, really close as in her seat partner, to make her believe again in the power of love. To be alone an...
