Blame✖️

Part 1 - introduction

Hi, my name is Rose Matthew. I'm 16 years old and I live in LA. I live with my brothers, mum and dad... Although only my dad is my real father, I still think my brother and mum are my real family. I live with them and everything but they aren't my actual brothers and mum. Their names are Beau, Luke and Jai Brooks, and they have their best friends which are my friends, James Yammouni and Daniel Sahyounie. My mum is called Gina and my dad is called Evan.

My mum died because she smoked too much and drank to much. She was always a drunk bitch. She used to abuse me and push her cigarette on me whenever I was "bad". I do miss her I just... I wish she changed before she died.

My 4 bestest friends in the world, Luke, Ashton, Calum and Beth. Everyone else at school are bitches and they think everyone likes them so they go and do what they want, when they want, but in reality nobody likes them and they just cant see the truth because it's been covered with their fake lashes. They have "super cool awesome sweet 16" birthday party's and invite everyone (including me). I've been to one of them before but someone pushed me into the chocolate fountain and my dress got ruined. Everyone laughed. School sucks.

I have a boyfriend, Michael Clifford. He has been for a year and he's the best boyfriend ever. He's always there for me and know how to cheer me up whenever I'm sad. He's brought me flowers for every anniversary.

Whenever he goes on tour he always finds time to quickly come back to me and give me flowers and go off again. He's incredible. Nobody, not even him, knows how much I love him.

It's really hard to cope at school right now. In year 11, it's stressful. All you do everyday is revise to get the best grades you possibly can. I'm not smart. I missed a year because (my mum died) I didn't want to go. So an hour or two I revise, every night. I want to get good grades, I want to get a good job. It's just so stressful.

My life is shit. And it's gonna get worse...