• I don't know why I need him, he's about to drive me mad. But I guess you always want what you can't have.
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"Miranda knows about us." Zayn pulled away from the kiss, Liam not quite listening to him.
Liam only hummed softly in response and leaned in towards Zayn again, pressing his lips against Zayn's, not really interested. He just wants to kiss Zayn like there's no tomorrow, he just can't get enough.
"Mm - Liam, did you even hear what I said?"
Liam continued on kissing Zayn which made Zayn slightly push him away but he wasn't strong enough, Liam's grip was tight around him.
"Mm, yeah. You said something about Miranda. Now, kiss me." Zayn didn't get a chance to speak since Liam roughly kissed Zayn.
Zayn shook his head and threw his head back, hand pressed on Liam's chest to get him to stop.
"Yeah and what else did I say."
Liam only rolled his eyes and let out a huff. "I don't know, I can't remember." He replied, putting Zayn's hand down so he could kiss him again.
Zayn shook his head, sighing. "Stop it." Zayn moved away from him, unwrapping Liam's arms from around his waist.
Liam frowned and poked his bottom lip out, staring at Zayn with his famous sad look - puppy look.
Zayn shook his head and avoided the look on his face, he looked everywhere but Liam. "Miranda knows about us."
Zayn repeated again, licking his lips and let out a breath he didn't know he had been holding.
"She knows? Oh okay." Liam replied coolly, shrugging his shoulders.
He didn't care if she knew, it's Miranda. She can keep a secret and she's not that type of girl to just open her mouth and tell everyone.
She was loyal with everyone's secrets. Liam didn't mind of her knowing.
"So.. you don't care that she knows?" Zayn finally looked at Liam, honey doe eyes staring into Liam's brown ones.
Liam grabbed Zayn by the waist and pulled him closely towards him, bodies pressed to each other's.
He looked down at Zayn whom was looking at Liam's collar instead of his face. He lifted Zayn's head with his index finger under his chin, smiling once their eyes meet.
"I don't care if anyone knows about us, were not exactly together.."
Zayn looked down, heart dropping and landing on his ass. That got him, making him sad and pull away from Liam's grasp.
Liam looked at him confused. "Did I say something to make you mad?"
Zayn shook his head, his eyes glued to the floor. "N-no, you didn't. I- I gotta finish off something.." He lied, voice stuttering and letting out a shaky sigh and made his way out of the office.
For the last couple of weeks - almost a month, Zayn himself has been waiting for Liam to ask him to be his official boyfriend, not just some type of fuck buddy or something.
What Liam said back there made his heart shatter, he wished Liam couldn't of said that. It was a touchy subject for him, Liam didn't understand that Zayn wanted to be in a relationship, especially with him.
He felt like Liam was using him, but he knows Liam feels the same way towards him, at least that's what he thought.
He bit down on his bottom lip, a habit of his when he's nervous and thinking over things too much.
He flopped himself down on his swivel chair and groaned to himself. It wasn't worth to sulk in work, he only had two more hours left and he was thanking God.
He needed to rant, needed to eat ice cream and sob while ranting to himself or Louis, if he's busy. Who was he kidding, Louis was never busy.
"Stop grunting, sounds like Liam is giving you a blowjob or something." Miranda spoke up, giggling lightly not knowing why but she was quite proud at what she had said.
Zayn lifted his head up and moved around in circles on his chair. "You don't understaaaaaand" Zayn replied, dragging out the letter 'a'.
Miranda placed her hand on the back of the chair to stop him from spinning. Zayn felt light headed once she stopped it, feeling sick to his stomach a little and wanting to vomit out his feelings.
"Yes, you are right. I don't understand what you're doing."
Zayn rolled his eyes again and face palmed himself, lazily dragging his hand down his face dramatically.
He groaned once again, placing his chin in the palm of his hand. "Well, I told Liam that you knew about me and him."
Miranda nodded and sat down on Zayn's desk, crossing her arms. "Yeah and what did he say?"
"He just said oh and said he doesn't care that you knew."
Miranda nodded and hummed. "Good to know that he trusts me."
Zayn sighed. "Yeah, I guess." Miranda raised her perfectly delicate eyebrows, leaning forward. She squinted her eyes, eyes roaming on Zayn's face noticing the sadness visibly set on his flawless face.
"There's something bothering you isn't there and don't you dear deny it and make up some lie ass excuses. I can read you like a magazine, Zayn."
"Did you just use Taylor swift reference?"
"Maybe, but if Liam said something. Just ask him why he gotta be so mean."
Zayn chuckled lightly, "once again, Taylor Swift."
Miranda shrugged and put her hands up in surrender. "Haters gonna hate hate hate"
Zayn laughed lightly, shaking his head. "You're useless"
Miranda set her hands down on her lap and grinned. "But you love me, so I'm good."
Zayn only rolled his eyes in response the two having a moment of silence.
However, few minutes later Zayn started ranting to Miranda about Liam. It was nothing bad nor mean towards him, it was mostly about him wanting to be in a relationship with Liam more than anything in the world.
But you always want what you can't have.
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Weeeell, quite liked the ending because Liam said it in an interview while staring at Zayn as he said those words with Zayn frowning and looking at him sadly. I can perfectly still remember it. "You always want what you can't have." Will always be my favourite quote, thanks Liam.
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