Kaeya angst (One-shot)

Kaeyas wish

Every night he'd pray to anemo archon wishing death upon himself, wishing to bleed out alone, he wants to die alone which is unusual as many people wish to die with someone the love by their side. No one loves him, why would they? He's a spy from khanri'ah the lost nation. He has no family; the closest thing to family he has is a certain brother who disowned him. Kaeya is constantly full of hatred and despair towards himself, he prays all bad things to happen to him, he deserves them anyways. 

One night Venti was sitting in Mondstats hero once again and listening to Kaeya desperate cry for the god to send something to kill him. The bard had to confront him tomorrow, not drunk and he didn't want Kaeya drunk either, Venti was simply going to drag him down to Mondstats hero and have a talk to him, at this rate, if he wanted to talk to him about it Kaeya would have to know he is Barbatos. Of course he didn't care Kaeya was from khanriah, Venti knew about this to from the constant speaking of how much he despised his father for leaving him alone to defend for himself, Venti knew all about his father and a lot about his childhood, why Kaeya wished death, why he wanted to die alone, Kaeyas true dreams he had wished on in life and the relation between Kaeya and Diluc. 

So, Venti did as he planned that night, He went into Mondstat and waited for Kaeya to leave the knights headquarters with an incredibly serious face. Kaeya finally walked out the door and when he did, he was immediately dragged by the arm by Venti. "Venti? What is the big rush for?" Kaeya spoke without a care in his voice, but it was all a facade, Venti already knew, he had heard Kaeya real Voice, his silky-smooth Voice wasn't real and never will be, his real Voice was softly spoken, quiet and reminded Venti of dandelion fluff. "Shut it Kaeya, we are going to have a talk by Mondstats hero." Taken aback Kaeya just let venti drag him the 300 meters away from the city to the big tree that had stayed there for a long time, centuries long. 

"What is it you wish to speak about?" Kaeya had said again with his fake voice, Venti preferred when Kaeya spoke naturally, He liked his voice but only often heard it through his pained sobs and desperate pleas for death. "I know you have been praying to the anemo archon, I know everything you've said to him." Kaeyas eyes started to well with tears and he couldn't speak but mouthed a simple word of 'how' Venti now had no choice, "I am Barbatos, Kaeya, my vision is just a painted rock to avoid suspicion." Kaeyas legs fell in on him and cold tears quickly streamed down his face, Kaeya apologized through broken sobs for telling Venti this and he promised to never pray and say such things again. 

Venti looked upon the broken pleading figure beneath him, Kaeya didn't keep him silky voice and instead went back to the one Venti heard at night, every night. While Kaeya was trying to compose himself by wiping away tears and trying his hardest to stop crying, Venti sat in front of him and wiped away his tears with a swipe of his thumb. He smiled at the younger as his eyes widened, a sudden surge of feelings ran through Kaeyas body as Venti smiled at him so softly, He brung Kaeya in for a hug and tears started to drip, Kaeya could no longer keep his composure together. He hugged back tightly chocking back sobs as Ventis arms latched around his torso and rubbed his hands along his back in an attempt of comfort. 

Having a headache, he fell asleep in Ventis arms which he would never ever mind, He wanted to see his People happy and would now do whatever it took to keep the one person in Mondstat who was in constant mental pain happy.