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Pg. 01
"No human is perfect."

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"Come here, Baby. Talk to me..what's wrong?" her wrist were gently being pulled to stand in between his legs. Her eyebrows were pushed downwards as her lips were formed in a visible pout. Not that it wasn't normal for her to feel frustrated or upset, it was just rare that she'd snap over it. She'd usually manage her emotions better and not let them control her.

He placed a soft kiss onto her hand, caressing it.

"You wanna talk about why you being snappy today?" He asked. She stayed silent, as she looked everywhere but him. Her mind had been all over the place, alongside her thoughts screaming crazy things at her all day. She felt so unbalanced. She usually felt way more put together than this.

And it frustrated her. Now, him telling her she'd been being snappy made her feel really bad, like a bad person, like her thoughts had been telling her. She didn't want to snap on people. And she didn't want to be a bad person.

"Hm?" He hummed, caressing her thighs. Her eyes began watering, causing his expression to soften even more.

He cooed his awes as he scooped her up into his lap, slouching back into the couch with her, rubbing up and down her back, attempting to sooth her.

He didn't like seeing his baby cry, but he had no problem with her letting her emotions flow the way they needed to.

Her shoulders heaved as she cried, "I just feel really—unbalanced and all over—the place." She cried. "My mind is everywhere" She heaved making him hold her tighter. She tried to stay calm as she cried but she was crying so hard that she began hyperventilating.

"I know, Mama. Im sorry." He soothed her.

She had honestly been learning many things about herself the past week and had been realizing she's not the person she thought she was. She's not as 'perfect' as she thought she was. which was very upsetting to her, she had been introduced to her shadow & many flaws that she had no idea she had. And it weighed on her heavy that no one ever brought these things to her attention, if they noticed them, and it made her feel a bit bad that if she knew, she could've been better & she wasn't treating people the best she could to her ability.

If she could be better, she'd always want that.

It just was a lot for her. She knew everyone had flaws but she didn't know she had any. That was the darker side of her.

She swallowed to catch her breath. "I feel like a bad person!" "I don't wanna be bad, i don't wanna do bad!"

"I feel like I don't do things the right way, it's just a lot, Pa." She attempted to wipe her flooded puffy eyes, but only smeared her cheeks with wetness.

"And today when I was doing my hair it upset me deeply because it wasn't cooperating right and it didn't look the way I wanted it to look, and I felt like it was just stupid!"

"Stupid stupid hair!" She cried. "But it's not stupid and I shouldn't call things stupid! nothings stupid and I shouldn't talk that way because it isn't a nice word!"

Watching her mournful red puffy eyes stare into his, he wanted to cry himself hearing her cries. He didn't care how "little" a breakdown could look, or how dramatic. hers was very serious to him.

He could only stare at her with softened eyes, instantly ready to find solutions and ways to help her.

Hs just wanted to know who did this to her? who made his baby feel like there's a wrong and right in everything ?

Bad person?? She's the most beautiful spirit ever. inside and out. Even her darkest sides couldn't dim the light she possesses.

"I just don't want to talk at all sometimes, I feel like I do the wrong things.

"Papa, please tell me if you think i'm a good person?" She looked up into his softened eyes.

"Mama, listen baby. You want your solution now? or you want to feel your emotions first?"

"I wanna feel..for a lil bit."

"Okay, we can feel for a lil bit..then we gone figure all of this out. Okay?" "Mkay.."

"I can tell you what I think about you all day long, but it won't mean shit unless you know that about you and feel the same way about you."

"Of course I know you a great person, you're  beautiful inside and out, Love. You already a star of light made from what made the stars, sitting in front of me and if that ain't enough you're the universe sitting in front of me, but only in human form. if you ask me, ima always tell you, you an angel but it doesn't take a way the fact that you are actually human on earth. You're a beautiful creation mama, you do know what you're made from and you know who you are..I know you do, so i'm not even gone take it there, but i'll tell you this.."

"No human is perfect, and no one should be tryna be. there's no such thing as good and bad, you're human baby, it's okay to mess up."

"It's okay to do "wrong" things and it's okay to make mistakes. It's what you're supposed to do, baby. don't expect that you'll know how to do things the right way all the time on your first try.

another thing, everybody have flaws, i promise everybody is rough around the edges, your mistakes that you make and have made will never define you " he placed his finger onto her chest, looking into her eyes, "It's the way you go about it & how you retaliate. And you may just be finding out about your flaws, but that makes you human, don't let that change the way you view yourself because that doesn't sums you up. there's a darker side and there's a brighter side. you accept all of it, not just one. everything in life has two sides to it, perfect isn't real, princess.

good and bad, light and dark, sweet and sour—yin and yang. If you didn't know one how would you know the other? either way it go, fuck ups or not everything you do in life will be nothing but okay, you have nothing to worry about. It will always be okay.

He gently grabbed her chin, keeping her head tilted up as she focused on him. "Ain't no right way to do this life shit, there's no rule book. So, we just gone do it our way and what works fa us. Okay?"

She nodded, smiling. "Mkay, Pa."

"You feel better baby?" His hands found their way to her bottom as he rubbed over it with his thumbs.

She nodded, "Yes, I do! thank you papa for helping me, I really feel a lot better."

"You know I got you, Love."

"You did so good listening." He smiled at her, with that lil cute smile he always do. Her eyes widened as she looked him before popping his elbow. "I always listen good, i'm a good listener." She giggled a bit.

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Did y'all like this? i just loveddd it! if y'all want it to be more detailed. lmk.

Sigh. An solution oriented man. Don't we just love that? moral of the story no one is perfect & there's no such thing. accept all parts of you, the dark & light, to become the authentic you as a whole.

once you accept the darkness you can move as light as a feather.

I love you, ♥️