To be your everything

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The sun rays stroked my skin and it makes me feel relaxed somehow even though its partly burning me.

This is what I wanted it to be, Ill be having a tan skin in no time.

I just learned that hot and sexy guys want a tan skinned girl, I bet they have this kind of perception that dark colors really adds up to the girls' sexiness.

While I enjoy myself accepting the heat of the sun, a realization hit me.. Ganito na ba ako ka desperada na magka boyfriend kasi, damn, I dont find myself attractive anymore, eventhough my cousins are saying that im the prettiest among them all. I think theyre just saying it to stop me from worrying too much.

Dont blame me okay? Even before may mga insecurities na talaga ako and I just cant shove it off like its just an easy thing to do.

My trail of thoughts were interrupted by my cousin's voice

"Dane! The sun is definitely at its peak! This is not the right time for you to do this sunbathing shit! Ang init init kaya, baka naman pag napasobra kana dyan sa trip mo eh magkaka skin cancer kana!"

I slowly opened my eyes, only to find out that my cousin is looking down at me and is giving me that motherly-concerned look, nakataas ang kilay at nakapameywang

I removed my sunglasses and stood up to face her

"Theres no need to nag jasmin. And mind you, kaya nga sunbathing eh. I am strongly emphasizing the SUN in sunbathing para kahit papano magets mo naman. " i chuckled.

She just rolled her eyes at me as a response

"Babalik na ako sa suite natin if thats what you want, tapos na rin naman akong mag bilad sa araw" i smiled at her just to calm her raging hormones

She acts as if shes my real mommy but I like it when she acts like that. I can sense concern and love coming from my favorite cousin.

Jasmin is 2 years older than me so that explains why she's so protective over me.

Andito na kami sa suite namin. Actually were currently having our own vacation here in Palawan. We just wanted to relax and experience inner peace i guess? Well the latter is for jasmin because shes currently having problems with her family.

And me? Id like to relax kasi kaka graduate ko lang! Finally nakahinga na rin ako ng maluwag. Aba, college is a living hell especially when your professors are definitely giving you a hard time.

"There's a party tonight and I want us to attend!" she said enthusiastically. Mind you, that wasnt a plea, it was a demand.

I sighed. Im not that kind of girl who goes around partying and hanging out with friends in a certain bar. During my college days, I was busy studying not because my course needed some full attention, actually madali lang naman ang course ko but I really want to finish my studies first and I believe that if ill try to loosen up just a bit, I might be dragged away from my goal to finish college.

Jasmin disturbed me again from my trail of thoughts.

"Uh hello? Youre idling bhe!"

"Please Dane? Ngayong lang naman to eh, I know youre not fond of partying and whatsoever but you need to atleast experience it. Okay?"

I have no choice. I know she needs my cooperation right now to forget her problems just for this day. So, I soullessly agreed.

She hugged me tight and I hugged her back. Anything for my cousin.

"Great!" She's beaming so widely right now.

"And I almost forgot, you cant wear any tshirt and shorts later, its a beach party for goodness sake so basically you need to wear a bikini so I got you this!"

I gasped after seeing that piece of cloth that would clearly fail to cover my whole body. Jasmin gave me an innocent look.

"What? So you have plans to wear tshirt and shorts later? Oh god youre a manang!" She snorted.

"Whats wrong with it? Its not an offensive wardrobe for later though"

"Everything is wrong! Look at you, nag sunbathing ka ng naka shirt and short, i mean seriously Dane? Only our lola would do that!"

I smirked. Jasmin and her fashionista attitude. Well I cant blame her, she's a fashion designer anyway.

"Okay mom. But please let me wear a cover up, alam mo naman na im not comfortable wearing those things"

She sighed. "Okay okay! See through na dress. Wag kanang pumalag" she stuck out her tounge. Yep she's a bit childish.

I rolled my eyes at her and she just laughed.