Stray Gods (SLOW UPDATES BUT NOT ABANDONED)

Chapter 13

Something pulled on your leg and you woke up.

It was still quite dark in the room but even so, you could still see just enough to see Minho lying in front of you, his eyes closed as he was still asleep.

He looked so sweet like that, so peaceful and relaxed, and you couldn't help but wonder what he would be dreaming about right now.

Minho stirred and you could feel the leg he had hooked around yours spasming slightly.

You couldn't sneak away even if you wanted to.

But honestly...

This time you didn't feel like you wanted to. Considering everything that had happened last night you felt surprisingly calm.

Of course, there was a part of your brain that was freaking out, screaming at you, pulling its hair out at the fact that you just got fingered by one of your Oppas.

But that part seemed significantly smaller this time. Like that part in your brain had been put into a smaller room, of which the door had been shut and now the person inside was just yelling through the keyhole.

You could still hear it and if you had to admit it you would say it did make you slightly nervous.

But not as much anymore. Not as badly.

Maybe it was because this was the second time something so big had happened, maybe it was because you had had these encounters with all of them now and you had gotten used to it or maybe it was because the truth had come out. You weren't sure. But everything suddenly seemed so much simpler.

They knew you loved them. And they didn't seem to be repulsed, shocked or scared.

And apparently, they loved you as well. It had been an impossible thought before, almost ridiculous to think they would see you as more than just their friend. But Hyunjin had said they did. They all did. And what happened with Seungmin and Minho seemed to confirm that statement, however improbable it had once seemed to you.

You had to admit, you weren't particularly fond of the way you seemed to be unable to recognise the signs anymore, how you would suddenly slip into some sort of carnal desire. Before when you thought about it, you would've almost sworn you were possessed or something of the like. But now that you thought about it...

Your mind was suddenly brought back to the memories of all the romantic movies you had ever seen. Sure, everything you saw on the tv was fiction, but it had to be based on something, right? How many movies and shows hadn't you seen where the romantic leads would be head over heels for each other? Where they would almost clash into each other, thirsting for each other like they were the only ones that existed in this world and they needed the others' touch to survive? It had always seemed so ridiculous to you, fiction merely. But now it was happening to you. After all, romantic love often, though not always, has some string attached that pulled in more...

You wanted them, needed them. You loved all of them so incredibly much.

As you saw their faces in your mind your heart felt like it was almost aching with love. All of them, every single one of them, was just so beautiful. And not just their appearances, no. Their appearances were simply their beautiful shells, reflecting their beautiful insides. Because their minds, their hearts, their personalities, that was why you couldn't stop thinking about them. Loving, warm, caring, funny, smart, sweet, all of them were just like Gods even without their powers.

You realised now, almost stupidly, that you had always loved them. You had always felt this way about all of them. How could you not, them being who they are? It was simply that now, suddenly, for some reason, everything that you had been suppressing for all this time, not realising or maybe not wanting to realise, was suddenly crashing into you. Having been in denial for so long, having closed your eyes to that part of you, those feelings and emotions, it had scared you when they first showed their true intentions.