E M B E R
"What a day! We got good deals and free cake." Ivory exclaims after we grab our orders and settle down in our seats.
I nod.
"Tiring."
It's four thirty in the evening, and we have been in the local mall since lunch after roughly spending 10-15 minutes making me change into her clothes: a hoodie and jeans since my only piece of attire has turned into nightwear. I glance at the bags and sigh. We really shopped a lot. Mostly, she did.
Ivory grabs my attention as she scoffs, "Oh, please!" she leans back and grins, "I can shop all day long. I had so much fun shopping with a friend, though." I can't help but cringe a little before I let a small smile appear on my face as she tears the wrapper of her madeleine cake, and I grab my cup of hot mocha in silence until she then blurts out, "So, tell me about you."
I raise my gaze and then tilt my head in slight confusion.
Ivory bites into the cake and shrugs at me. "What? I know nothing about you, and for us to be best friends, I need to know everything that was your life before you came here." she then leans in and eagerly stares at me, making me anxious as I purse my lips and look down at the cup tightly gripped between my hands, contemplating what to tell her about my life.
Should I tell her the truth? Should I tell her I'm a werewolf Alpha, not a human? Or should I continue with my lie? It's not like anyone here would ever meet me once I go back. I can't yet feel my powers fully back. I wonder what's taking them so long to restore. What if I never turn into my wolf form?
Ugh, can't you think a little positively, Ember? At least believe in me if you still have to be a pessimist.
I sigh when she snaps her fingers in front of my eyes, "Hey, where'd you go?"
I blink to look back at her. "Huh?"
Ivory smiles. "C'mon, let me know you. I will do the same."
For what feels like an eternity, I take a deep breath and shrug, "Well, I'm — just me." her smile falters and then she scoffs, "What?" I tilt my head and smile slightly. She continues, "What kind of an introduction is that? I know you're you, but there must be more, don't you think?" It's not usual for people to ask me what I am, who I am, or how my life is going, but what's really anxious about those questions is that I don't seem to have an answer. At all.
Ever since that night, I never really thought of myself as an individual. I never thought of my dreams and my desires. I was swamped with work, and then there was revenge against those who tried to maim my pack. So, now that someone else is asking me about myself, I don't really have an answer, nor do I want to.
But I know I have to say something.
How about "I'm the bitch who makes things worse for people who mess with my family and me"?
Uh, something lighter, perhaps.
I shake my head and force myself to smile again as I cough up, "I really have never thought about it."
Way to go, Ember!
I roll my eyes at my wolf's sarcasm.
Ivory frowns and then raises her eyebrow, blurting out, "About what? About yourself?" I purse my lips and shrug as I nod.
"Why not?"
I raise my gaze and begin actually to wonder. How could I think of myself when my family and pack went through so much? I couldn't just ignore them and focus on what I wanted back then, right? I sigh. "I don't know. I was always busy with one thing or other. Never really had time to deeply think about what I want."
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She's The Alpha!
WerewolfA tale of supernatural, magical love and rival packs, In years, she transformed from a young girl to a strong alpha. A warrior. *** Ember Hemming. She took command of her pack as the only female Alpha at the ripe age of sixteen. She cares about he...