Tw: Sh mention, Ed mention , Obsessiveness ,self hatred
Sometimes I wonder why people say they like me and say that they are friends with me. It feels like a lie. How can anyone like me, I'm stupid. I wish I was alone again.Peaceful Pain.But then the thought of abandonment scares me. That's probably why I get attached so easily. So so easily.
It's horrible...
I hate my obsessive behaviours and the compulsions that follow. I might say sorry once but it never feels like enough. Sometimes I become very obsessive. I just keep on apologising.I can't control it. Sometimes I say sorry more than 100 times. The evil person in my head just tells me to do things sometimes.It's like I'm the puppet and it's the master. When I don't do what it tells me I become very anxious. Some of the things that it tells me to do is to cut myself or to apologise and say sorry or to starve myself. I hate it.
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Venting :)
RandomBasically I write depressing paragraphs in a notebook at school so I thought why not publish them for the weirdos like me who enjoy depressing stuff :)
