Eyes That Lied

Chapter 1

Everything feels mismatched and unsettling, nothing feels or looks the same as it did the day before. Yesterday everything here used to feel lively yet boring but today feels as if every little thing in this town is getting a fake layer taken off, now everything here looks black and white and isolated.

It is not just the streets and roads that look modified and altered today, the people here also started to keep away from me as much as possible, like I am going to rob them just because I feel like it.

But at least the store I'm in doesn't feel as depressing as the streets do. When I was younger everybody including my parents would always tell me that I am going to have a very bright and lovely future but I'm not entirely sure if that's true.

The store has bright lights which makes it pretty and refreshing, making me feel a little better than when I was outside and that's good I suppose. I want to know what type of lights they used. It would make the lighting in my house more beaming and would make my parents feel somewhat better than the feeling of depression.

Now I have no friends, I'm not certain where it all went wrong or what happened but both me and my parents were on holiday and after we came back every single person began staying a couple of feet away from me.

It's not like I want any friends anyway. Most humans are very confusing and way too emotional for their own good. And others seem to not care about anything and those types of people are probably the best type of people, unfortunately enough there aren't any of those types of people in this town.

Every single individual in this town undoubtedly cares for their reputation too much too to be kind because once you do something against one's beliefs like hanging out or helping the weird neighbor next door they would consider you to be weird along with the weird neighbor.

God!

Why does everybody always give me weird looks instead of just staying away from me, it is just annoying. I wonder just what I did to them to get all these rude looks and comments. A couple of weeks ago I overheard people calling me "the crazy girl in the old house".

When did I turn into the "crazy" girl?

Because of how many times I've heard those rude and annoying comments I might as well turn into a crazy girl one day. People like that are probably the reason other people with a disturbed mental status actually lose their sanity all at once, it is always the negative things they people whisper behind your back while they walk away from you.

I don't think anybody actually cares about each other's mental health, not as long as others can benefit from it by advertising it or by showing empathy and worry for them on social media, they would get money and fame from it.

I think I should worry about my own life and mental state instead of worrying about other people's mental conditions.

In my point of view, people who stay away from a person just because of rumors that have no proof to support it are a bunch of cowards and wimps.

After constantly being avoided at all times and hearing all these cowards call me the crazy girl or any other rude comments, all I need right now is to go home to my parents and have a nice and comforting lunch with them but for that to work I have to get groceries from the store.

The store is sizable with many people in it trying to find what they need in a hurried manner, they seem to be very aware of their surroundings and that makes it harder for every other individual around me to walk ten feet away if not more.

Hope this depressing feeling stops spreading all over my body, it's making me emotionally and mentally weak.