CHAPTER 1
My breathing was ragged.
Even being an athlete with so much training wasn't any help, I was at loss.
My tears had run dried and I was running out of reason not to jump off the ledge.
After being in love with a guy for six years only to discover him having an affair with my childhood friend was I admit a big blow to my self esteem considering I thought myself to be enough for him.
It was so unfair.
It was all so sudden, or was it?
Haven't I found their closeness a bit odd? Haven't I seen them differently before? Or was I too blind or too scared to admit it? Nonetheless, it's over.
I took out my phone and randomly dialed a number, it was out of reach so I decided to leave a message before I die.
Life has ceased to excite me
Love has failed me endlessly,
I want everything to end.
I waited for something to happen, although I'm not sure what exactly.
I'm waiting for minutes and it dragged on for hours.
If I died, will it change anything?
Will they broke up out of guilt?
If so, would he love me then? Before I could help myself I started laughing. What was I thinking jumping off a building for a guy who can't even run faster than me?
I saved the random number I texted earlier.
I registered it as "lifesaver"
Of course I went home that night, my eyes swollen my voice was hoarse and I was starving.
After my parent's had died when I was sixteen, I have lived independently. I have been living with my best friend for five years and after a gruesome deliberation I decided to pack her things.
I was particularly focused on not leaving out anything unscathed. Laughing like a maniac I tossed her perfume and expensive make up into one pile not even minding if it was broken.
I was thinking Ohh there goes your favorite Chanel, and somehow I feel less pain.
I heard a sudden knock on the door, I took all her thing's with me open the door and saw her panic stricken face before she could even say anything I throw her clothes at her face and yelled get lost.
I could hear her crying, for whatever reason I was no longer concern. She was no longer the same girl I grew up with. And maybe she will be forever being a blacklisted person to me.
He tried to call me all night.
Talk about indeciveness right?
You broke my heart and right now you want to effing fix it?
I was tempted to answer the call and curse him over and over again, but it wasn't worth it, HE wasn't worth it.
So after being in a relationship for six years I become single.
What will happen tomorrow? Will she have the guts to show her face in my office? Or will she just vanished out of thin air? The latter was much more comforting, but won't I look like so unprofessional?
But I need time to forget things. A time long enough to learn how to breathe again. So whatever comes tomorrow I'll have to deal with it.
And even If was scared to sleep that night the moment I close my eyes I fell asleep. Like it was effortless.
"Sir How did the meeting go?" his secretary asked after he was trapped for eight long hours of unending proposals and arguments.
"It went well as far as I'm concern, But I wouldn't hold my breath for their proposal." he shrugged it off, he took out his phone, He felt that he got a message since it wasn't a call he thought it wasn't that important.
hmmm...unregistered number? As he read it he was shock
life has ceased to excite me
Love has failed me endlessly,
I want everything to end.
Was it a prank? But no other text was sent.
"Can you do a quick search for me; Find news about anyone---a girl who committed suicide."
"Yes Sir," He said browsing faster than he ordinary does, After a minute or two he looked up and said " There no recent report on suicide over the couple of hours, but if you want I could look it up further."
"That won't be necessary, but I need you to locate this number for me. "He wrote the number and was sorely tempted to call just to make sure this person was still alive.
"I'll have it in your office tomorrow sir, would you like me to get your car?"
"Ah yes, I need to rest for awhile. I'm not feeling so well." He felt weak all of a sudden, like it was hard to breathe. He wasn't this tired while he was in the meeting. And what was he thinking going through the trouble of finding her; He was so sure of its gender with no basis whatsoever. He went home looking at his phone wondering whether it was right to wait for another text. He took a warm shower and was ready for bed when he heard it.
Message Alert
How childish he was scrambling on his way to get it almost dropping it and then he read.
You saved me.
"You saved me? That's all?" He was frustrated but was quite relieved.
She was alive after all. He wanted to text her back, He wanted to comfort her somehow but he was afraid that she will get embarrass and it was the last thing on his mind. He'll wait for the right time; He smiled at the thought of being patient, and something he wasn't.
