BILLIE-HALES & ZEALOUS

Chapter 12

CHAPTER TWELVE

I shake my head because I've no clue what to tell her. This is a new one even for me, so I'm at a loss. Every ounce of my body is telling me, to let her go, but my head and my heart, are telling me to hold on don't let go. I know I'm being selfish I've been selfish since the day I met her, but I can't seem to let go. Of course, I don't tell her what her dads said to me. No, I don't because it'll probably scare her. She knows what her family is capable of hell we all do. In fact, the whole fucking town does. I knew the risks of going after her, but she was just too Bellissima to pass up. Obviously, I tried to let go. I tried and completely failed because every day I'm with her, the need to stay with her grows. At first, I'd seen her, as I did with the rest. I wanted in just like the rest. Yet, after spending a little time with her, I knew she was different. She isn't like the rest and that's what made me try to pull away, but I'd completely failed. I wanted her and the moment I truly knew this was when I watched that look of disappointment again. You know, before she'd walked away. No, it wasn't the moment I'd watched Chris Kiss her. No, it was when I'd basically told her, we couldn't be anything more than fuck-buddies. Her face completely crumbled. I was trying to do the right thing. I knew she wanted me, just like I wanted her. Yet it scared me. I didn't, I still don't want to hurt her. I mean, she's young we both are, but I can't seem to walk away. It's crazy, I know, but when you know, you know, right?

"Just, give them time to adjust, Baby. I'm sure they'll come around, eventually. I guess we all have to go through a few trials. You know, before they eventually, see that we're for real."

"Knock-knock,"
I hear my mother say as she gives my door a little tap. Billie and me, we're both sat down on the edge of my bed while I hold her in my arms. She's been in here for about an hour now and I'm honestly lost. I've no clue how to deal with this. All I can do is hold her and tell her we'll be okay.
Fuck, I hope we will.

"Hey kids, I um... thought you'd be hungry, so I um... Well, I've made a few sandwiches. I mean, if you're not hungry that's fine, but they're there if you are."
She placed the tray down on my chest of drawers, and when I look up, I thank her. she sends me a little smile.
"How're you holding up sweets? I mean, are you okay?" She kneels down and then places her hand on Billie's arm. She finally looks up from my chest, nodding her head while wiping away her tears.
"Yeah, yeah, I will be. I-I'm so sorry about this, Mrs Dalton. I swear I'll be out of your hair soon. I mean, as soon as I can get a place. Well, I'll need a job first. Oh god, I should call the college. I'd have to tell them I can't go."
This is where both I and my mother snap our eyes around to look at her.
"What, why, baby, don't you dare. I swear we'll be fine you can stay here for as long as you need to."
I end up looking at my mum silently asking if that's okay too. She looks worried, but she gives a little nod of her head telling her she can stay as long as she needs.

"But sweets, you're gonna have to face them sometime. I mean, this is your parents. Yeah, this is probably a shock to them, but would they honestly try and stop you from seeing him? I mean, it just seems crazy.
I know my boy hasn't had the best reputation. You know, with girls, but he has a heart and I can see that he's given it to you. Honestly, I've never seen this before. You know, Junior in love. It's quite nice to see."
Billie tilts her head, looking a little puzzled at hearing my Mum's words.
"Oh, trust me. We'd convinced ourselves he'd never settle down. See, my boy here. He's kind of. Let's say, a free sprint. He likes to do his own thing in his own time. I guess he gets that from me, but he has his Papas ambition. He has his talents and heart and he'd always looked out for his loved ones. You need anything, he'll be there. Obviously within reason. Yet when it comes to his family, and in your case 'girlfriend', he'd run to the ends of the earth for you."

I smile upon hearing this. She's never said anything like this before. Well, not to me anyway.

"Oh, don't get me wrong, he has a bit of a mouth on him. He's always getting himself into trouble with it, but he's a good guy really. Again, take as much time as you need as long as you're with my boy then you're welcome to stay here for as long as you need."
Billie smiles while nodding her head again, and while she's thanking her I feel her move on my side which I love.