BILLIE-HALES & ZEALOUS

Chapter 19

CHAPTER NINETEEN

BILLIE-HALES,
A few hours earlier...
   "I so can't wait for this can you imagine just watching all those hunky rugby players?" Charlie says, and then Norm nudged her, reminding her he's there.

"Oh, baby, you know you're the only one for me. But this is rugby guys we're talking about, ones covered in mud, wrestling each other. But don't worry, I'd never touch them, especially since I have you. Why would I want Mr Rough when I have, Mr perfect?"
She ends that by placing a chaste kiss on his lips. Shit. They're so loved up, it makes me want to vomit. Don't get me wrong, I adore them. They're a pretty cute couple, but they're my only friends at college. This means, I have to deal with it, but still, it's all they ever do.

"Good save, sweetheart, but I can be rough all you need to do is ask."

Yeah, I roll my eyes. My god, it's sickening. I'm so done with soppy shit. I mean, it could just be the fact I'm horny as hell, and I can't get any. Yes, I know it's my fault, but I couldn't allow that to go on. You know, with Zealie, and me. He deserves to go out there and find his true love. He says I'm it and honestly it fills my heart to know this, but it also kills it because I can't tell him the same in return. I want to. I'd want nothing more than to do, just that. Only I know it wouldn't be right because it would be a lie. I feel so bad though. You know, giving him false hope, but I'd told him from the start I'd told him it was just fun. He'd agreed he said okay. So why, why do I feel guilty? Why did he have me thinking that he was ok with that? When obviously he wasn't. He wanted more.
Oh god, Zealie, if I'd known that this was what you were hoping for? Well, I wouldn't have taken it as far as I did. I know I've been selfish with him I know I should've stopped it. I guess I just wanted to see too. You know, just see if what I feel for him would change. Sadly, though, it didn't. The fear of him doing it again was crippling me. Every time he left me, I'd go crazy, imagining him with another.
Could you imagine what I'd be like if I was to take him back? Could you imagine what would happen? I would drive myself and him insane. It's unhealthy for me and my baby. I can't allow my insecurities, to hurt anybody.
I think we've hurt each other enough, so it's time to close the curtains on "the Billie and Zealie show" for good.

"Holy shit, look at the size of this place! It's huge."
As I tell them this, I began rummaging through my purse looking for a bit of gum. It kinda helps me to concentrate when I'm taking pictures. Sadly, though, I'm out. However, luckily for me, Charlie has some. Well, it saves me from having to walk back up those stairs.

So while Charlie and I are happily chewing on our gum Norm is losing the will to live. He hates it when people clacking and popping their gum. So he's stood up in a strop and left us to it. Only Charlie kinda ditches me so that she can follow him. I don't mind at all, only because I kinda need a break from their obsessive kissing.

*Hey Billie, we've got a few gigs coming up soon, so give me a shout. Once you've had the baby of course. And when you're ready we'll set this up.
Chris 😎*
Seeing this text made me smile. Then after I sent him my response, telling him I will. I take a few pictures as the teams walk out onto the pitch.

   About twenty minutes later, I get a little restless. So I'd move further down the aisle. You know, to get a closer look. Only as I go, that's when I hear a whistle. Someone is whistling so I turn my head and find Charlie she's stood up from sitting next to Norm.

"Don't you dare go, any further."
She mouths the words with a stern look on her face. She's even holding her hands to her hips. She'd make a great teacher a very bossy one at that.

"Chill your knickers, woman. I'm just getting a little closer. Don't worry. I won't go anywhere near the pitch."

She's looking at me still looking unconvinced, but she sighs and then sits back down next to Norm. So again, I turn around and move down to the last set of seats the ones that sit just up from the pitch. No way can I, get any closer. I mean, I'm brave, but I'm pregnant so I can't be that brave not today anyway. Besides, I don't think I could get down on my knees. I couldn't just for fear I won't get back up. I'm too big now, so sitting on the floor can be a challenge to get back up from. As soon as I sit down, I feel a twinge a sharp twinge.