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Music - Friends by Chase Atlantic...

Sensitive Topics will be included in this chapter...
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3rd person POV :

Hyunjin had been Isolating himself for a while to grasp his thoughts and get them in order but he had one more little problem which was that nobody knew but him and Minho have been "seeing" eachother for a while to help their own selfish desires but both of them felt like something was missing.. Yes, they often got to see eachother mabye once or twice a month but they both knew that they couldn't just act like nothing goes on between them behind closed doors...

Hyunjin still had a boyfriend and Minho just seemed like an obsessed lunatic.. But speaking of their "special hangouts" they just got through with one of them but something was wrong...

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Minho's POV :

Hyunjin and I were currently finished with one of our.. How do I put this lightly.. One of our f *ck "playdates" and Hyunjin was resting his head on my chest, snuggling up to me and you would've thought I'd
be happy like this but no, I wasn't something was itching me inside.. The urge to have something more than just fucking whenever we wanted, I wanted to brag about our relationship and be open about it but Hyunjin still hasn't broken things off with Felix which leaves me questioning things about what we have been doing these past few months so I muttered up the last of my energy to ask him some things about well.. Us.

"Hyunjin."

"Hm..?"

"Do we really have something or.. Are you just using me for you own desires..?"

He looked up at me slowly shifting himself to sit on my lap looking into my eyes with his pretty little tired ones and started to softly speak to me in the best he could..

"Minho, I love you but I just don't know what or who I want right now and you know that.. Please, don't be upset with me love.. I just need time to figure it all out so, please.."

Then he rested his head on my shoulder still sitting on my lap, closing his eyes and his breath gently caressing my neck as he breathe in and out..

"Hyunjin, baby you know we can't keep pretending were just friends and Felix has started to notice you distancing yourself from him alot lately.."

"Your right and I know but please, don't leave me.. I need you, Felix never loved me like you do and I regret not telling him sooner but please just l just need time to think.. "

I just gave up and let Hyunjin rest I didn't want to pressure him more to decide faster and applying un-needed attention to our problem but I just wanted him to myself I didn't want to be on the side like dumb sl*ut waiting for validation
and a solution to their never ending problem of being someones side piece and knowing they can be trashed at any momment when their lover is tired of them but my situation was nothing like that.. He was just in denial and needed me to help him decide what was right for him...Right??

Plus I just wanted to rest and let Hyunjin think for himself...

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Hyunjin's POV :

I knew what I was doing with Minho was wrong but I needed more and I was planning to break up with Felix because I've lost feeling for him ever since Minho and I's first little encounter...

I was just waiting for the right momment and I was scared for his reaction but I knew what I was doing was right for me and Minho to be able to keep doing wha we were doing behind our friends backs but we felt stuck in this string of lies we created to cover our tracks.. But now I was trying to rest and decided to follow my gut with this decision i'm about to make for me and Minho's sake...

I started to drift off and my dreams started to visualize themselves, I was stuck in a dark room and my memories with Minho started to play one by one it's like his brain was yelling at him who to choose..

Minho. Minho. Minho. Minho. Minho. Minho. Minho is all his brain would tell him but one side of his head was telling him choose Felix his head was all over the place like a never ending nightmare he didn't realize he started to mumble in his sleep till Minho or atleast he thought it was Minho was starting to shake him awake, rubbing his eyes smiling then he started to realize what his surroundings were and who he was with it was Felix and then his smile dropped once he realized Minho left him, he wanted Minho here cuddling him again and holding him close not wanting to let him go but he knew Minho didn't want them to get caught no matter how much he wanted everyone to know about him and Hyunjin...

Felix sat down on the bed with Hyunjin putting on a movie letting Hyunjin cuddle up next to him but all Hyunjin could think of was Minho... 
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Minho, Minho, Minho, Minho...

Why did he have such an effect on Hyunjin like the way he did...

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- END CHAPTER

Did yall notice I'm using a new style of writing???

- ! ; あ Mimii ᥫ᭡ .