Project Lust

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Log, 1. It is 23rd Nov 2022, at 12:30 am. Because it was the only time fan would leave me alone. Today I completed a pill! It's a love pill, Anyone who consumes it gets a full dose of dopamine. And causes the person to fall in love with the first person they see. I made it for me to...experience love for the very first time. and sadly, I didn't dot down the process of making it. I should've I know, rookie move. I thought I had made 2, so I tested it out on fan! he willingly accepted to test it, And now I'm here. Feeling quite apologetic for myself, I guess it's a fail? I can't tell if It's correct or not, Maybe I should've gotten someone who could actually has crushes to help. And maybe shouldn't of winged it? Fan's obsessed with me. After the pill it instantly kicked in. and once he saw me...I had realised I messed up. It's like he's, a newborn puppy! It's so annoying! Plus lightbulb is attached to me because of paintbrush not being here, It's tiring, and It's gonna take weeks to make an antidote for fan! and I don't know if paintbrush will be eliminated anytime soon. Though with lightbulb, It makes me happy she cares bout them, I know she LIKE LIKE's them, and I wish I could understand that feeling. It's kinda funny, That me. A person who seems too prone to falling in love, can't actually have a crush but wants to? typical.

I guess I'm saying that feel bad. I wish I could be a normal person and fall in love. Is this normal? I honestly have no idea, I might have an idea of what the antidote needs though. Melatonin, It's the stuff we use to sleep! sadly we do not have a hormone entirely based on sadness, If we did I would have praised the lord! I mean melatonin is also more things too, aging, stress response, etc. Now that I wrote it, It doesn't fit the criteria. JEEBWEEZER! That's frustrating, And I thought it'd been easy to find something for the antidote. square one I guess! though the melatonin would help to make him chill out, I'll ask OJ if he has any. Knowing him he'll most likely have some. Fan's currently snuggled next to me, He's making it hard to write. I should probably head to bed anyway, I'm not tired though. Hmm, I wonder if I could sneak out to the lab. It could Be a good idea! though I might awaken Fan. And honestly I cannot deal with him right now. I don't really know how to journal and stuff, lightbulb recommended it to me couple weeks ago. She said "You just write what your thinking!"  I don't see the purpose of it but I thought I would have a crack at it,