The Past isn't Now

Chapter 1

Warnings
Mention of drugs and human trafficking. PTSD
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Shit shit shit... we were taking fire from everywhere. Soap is trying to hold us up so we can get out. I'm trying my best. I hide behind a crate to make a mazel tov. I light it and throw it into the crowd of soldiers. I grab Soap and run to the building over. Soap uses the ratio to talk to Ghost. "Air support is on its way hold on for a fit longer" Ghost said over the radio to Soap. I fix my mask before it falls off. We continue to hold our own until finally air support comes and takes out most of the soldiers. Me and soap fight our way to the top of the building to get in the helicopter. "We're free" I say as I collapse into the seat. Soap does the same as we fly back to base. We make it back and go get cleaned up before we go do what we need to do. I head to the training area to practice some before we find out what our next mission is. I start with my punches and kicks. I start to feel uneasy. I shrug it off and keep going. I suddenly get grabbed and pushed onto the ground. "You think you're tough huh?" I know that damn rat ass voice. " what the hell do you want Ryan?" I say as he's kneeling on my back. "You're out there run neither the big boys and yet you're still weak. You wear the damn mask to show how scared you are." He says to me like I'm a dog. "And who do you think you are talking to me like the you bitch?" I say as I try to get up. He push my head onto the floor. "You are not going to make it far because I". "HEY, GET OF OF HER". You heard to deep voice echo in throughout the room. "Ghost" I say as Ryan gets off and scrambles away. He looks at me "Are you okay?". "I'm fine Ghost you don't have to do stuff like that I can hold my own." He helps me up. He just stares at me with his dark eyes. "Captain Price needs us." He walked out of the door As I trail behind him. I walk around the table and sit down. I'm in between Soap and Ghost. Soap is making little balls out of paper. He starts to throw them out Ghost. A few of them hit you though. Ghost could literally care less that the little paper balls are hitting him. Laswell and Price came into the room. "There's a operation going on in southern Mexico. There have been a lot of transportation coming and going from there. We stopped one of the transport truck and found drugs and young girls." I was looking at Laswell but hearing this made me hurt from the inside. I fix my mask. Ghost saw the sudden change in my mood. Laswell continued to talk about what was happening but I couldn't listen. She started to show pictures of the building. My heart dropped. That was it. Where I grew up. Where my life changed forever. I lowered my head are Captain Price explained how we were going to get rid of these people. " We are going to head out in two day so start to get ready to leave" Price says as him and Laswell leave the room. I looked down at my hands. They were shaking. I got up and left as quickly as possible. I went to my room. I closed the door and slid down it. I started to sob. "Why does this still hurt, it was so long ago." I say as I hit my knees with my hands. I take my mask off and toss it onto the floor. Ghost makes his was to my door and he can hear you sobbing. I hear soft taps on the door. "Are you okay Scrub?" He whispers. "I'm fine leave me alone." He sits on the floor with the door behind him. He wants to make sure I'm okay but he is scared to get to close. He doesn't want to hurt me. I pick myself up off the floor and change into my pajamas and lay in bed. Ghost is still out in the hallway just incase I need him but after awhile he goes to his own room.