Once Upon A Thread

6

Silence will force you to reflect over the most painfullest details. Every little minor detail that helped shape the bleak, life im living now.

As my back lays against the cool floor of my cell. I can almost believe that I've finally achieved peace.

A real feeling of happiness that is foreign to me. Helps to enable my delusion.

That I'm free of all the shame and misery that came with being human.

Almost....

My eye's open once more, ignorant to the concept of time. A darker shadow moving across the floor towards me. Draws my attention.

Remembering my newly found insect friend. I comfortably allow myself to sink back into myself. The numbing hunger inside me is just another pinch to my body at this point.

The guard was helpful sneaking me nutritional grain bars in my blanket. It was just a cruel joke, that I needed water to eat them. The texture is grainy and brittle. Immediately drying my throat out. leaving me to choke and seize on the floor.

Time shifts over me uneasily, like a cheesegrater to my skin. I haven't fully recovered from the crash. Still, even before the crash. I was hardly surviving. Just wishing for a stable place to reside in.

Maybe this was the answer to all my problems? Shouldn't I be grateful for having shelter?

Once again I'm lost inside my brain. A loop of useless questions. Interagating me with false reality-based situations. Intill my new spider friend crawls across my view closer then before.

Crawling faster than my eye's can follow. I blink my eyes several times trying to keep up with it.

Suddenly, it stops, as if it's waiting for me to focus on it. The little thing tries to go inside my wrapped pillow. A idea springs to mind, and I gently pull out a hard, flat piece of grain.

The shy little spider scurrys backwards, Abit, but not far. Slowly, I break off a piece and place in near the spider. Its eyes widen at the sight of the food.

Without hesitation the spider spins a web, taking the crumb up the wall.

I stare dumbfounded, my hand moves to the back of my neck as I realize.

How did I know that it would eat it? Maybe I'm not the only one starving for basic care?

I'm so sick of hurting.

So tired of being scared.

So done with hating myself.

Feeding tiny insect shouldn't have made me feel so relieved. But it did. Because I knew that it might be the one good thing to happen to me.

The next day I wake up to the sound of a door. My eyes shoot open as soon as I hear it. Before I could move cold water splashs onto my feet.

I scramble to move my wrapped pillow around from the puddle on my cell floor.

The ugly guard growls as he ignorantly sits my bucket of water on the floor. We glare at each other for a moment. Before he shifts his body away slowly leaving my cell.

"You better get used to it, you're going to be living here for a while. If you want you can take your chances and run.

But I promise you I'll catch you and put a hole in your skull. If on of the Beasts out here don't getcha first." The nasty guard walks away.

I can't help but smile a bit. After hes fully gone. I don't care that he threatened me so bluntly.

He brought me water so i can finnaly eat. Now I'm able to swallow down those bars. Maybe it's the starvation but I'm starting to slowly see a brightside to all this darkness.