𝙎𝙩𝙪𝙘𝙠

Chapter 14

A few days pass by, I was officially ready for school. I was nervous. But, I knew everyone would know me. Nothing new. "You sure? Dana said. I nodded. "I'm ready, I promise." She nods. "Okay. I'll drive you."

I smile. I did have my license, luckily i got mine before I was kidnapped. We begin driving, I was shaking slightly, only in my hands but I was indeed nervous. Would people think negatively?

My insecurities came flooding back since I was going back into society. Junior never made me feel insecure mostly because I didn't love him so why should I be?

As I entered school all eyes were on me as cliché as it sounds. Everyone heard of my kidnapping and story so of course I'd be the center of attention. I didn't like it. Any attention on me I despised and it was unnecessary,

Now I couldn't trust people. People could use me for "fame", but it isn't fame honestly but people would see it that way unfortunately. I hear whispers, My name being brought up. But I didn't mind. I was happy I could be free. I could live my life accordingly once more.

I smile, opening my locker, seeing Jake when I close my locker. "Hey, He says, I quickly hug him, he hugs back. "I missed you, (Y/N), He smiles. I smile back."i missed you too." I really did. Even when he was above me while i was in the basement.

"Well, most of our classes are the same, Jake reminds me. I could've forgotten. But I didn't want to. We begin walking together. "So, How are you feeling? Jake asks. I shrug. "Good. I'm surprised I feel so happy, But I do."

"You're moving on, which is good, Jake reminds me. Which makes me feel happier. Moving on, weird word choice. You can't exactly move from being kidnapped. Will remain in your memories forever. Eventually, will come back.

But for now, I could enjoy life peacefully. We both enter our first period, I sit by him, surprisingly, our teacher doesn't move me. Probably out of pity more than anything. Which is something I don't really need anymore.

After school, Dana and Dad seemed to be a good mood. "How come you two are in such a good mood? I asked. Dana smiled."Well, I may be pregnant again."

"Again? Isn't Zach only a year old? I chuckle, dad nods. "we don't know for sure though. So tonight we're going out for dinner and then will buy a test-" "I know how that works, I laughed.

It was gross to imagine them "doing it", that was the most decent way to put it without wanting to barf. It wasn't that "doing it" was gross but the fact they were doing it.

Zach smiled up at me as he was beside his mother. Having no clue what we were saying which was good. "So (Y/N), Once you finish high school are you going to college? Dana asks, changing the subject.

"Maybe, I haven't thought about it yet, I admit. I probably should think about my future but I didn't think I'd get one. Dad nods. "We understand." I smile, they didn't get mad when i discussed college. (M/N) did. Quite often. She expected me to know which school I planned on going to.

But I have been thinking about College. Maybe going somewhere out of Hackensack.  Maybe move back home, My old hometown anyways.

I wasn't really set on anything at the moment especially since a lot of things changed and while change is good sometimes this change wasn't good.

My whole life had been ruined. But starting over was the least I can do. We only have one life but can restart it and leave the past behind at least.

If only we had more than one life.

I yawn."I think I'm going to take a nap." "Okay, Dad said."Just not for too long. We're leaving for dinner soon."

"Got it."

Truthfully I wasn't going to sleep much anyway since my nightmares came back. Nightmares I had when I was in captivity. They just involved junior being sick of me and stabbing me to death. A ton of gore for me honestly. But I can't control my nightmares.

Perhaps they're just memories reminding me why I can't be happy and move on and be at ease. I got into my bed and just let the darkness consume me. I was that exhausted.

When I woke up I didn't hear Dad yelling at me so I assumed I didn't sleep for that long but felt good enough so I changed into some better clothes, and came downstairs.

"Ready? Dad said. I nodded. Dana smiled. Was it mean of me to hope she wasn't pregnant again? I don't really want another sibling I've got one and he's crazy. A handful and not something I want to deal with again.

One could only hope huh?

We arrive at dinner. I hoped Dad and Dana wouldn't notice my disappointment or worry on my face. Because sometimes I tend to accidentally express my emotions through facial expression.

"So, Are you excited for possibly getting another sibling? Dana asks smiling. "Mhm, I lied, Trying to sound as truthful as possible. I expected Zach to be crazy but was behaving well. Maybe I didnft know him very well. Considering I've only been around to see him for a few weeks now. 

Once we ordered dinner and such, the main topic being brought up of course was this stupid possibility of fhe new baby. I didn't mind lack of attention. But do they really need more children? one kid seemed fine wifh Mom, so one should be fine with them. 

I'm probably being crazy over this. Oh well, My sleep schedule would become fucked up with a baby waking up every hour. We finished dinner and headed to the pharmacy. Close spot. I mentally prayed that the test would be negative. She would kind of be relieved, things would be normal. 

Or, as normal as it can be. 

timeskip

Currently, Dana was taking the test. Dad and I waited nearby. Soon, She comes out from the bathroom, holding the test in her hand.