Jinx's Daily Life

Music

11:25 am
It's Sunday morning, I'm listening to music while I'm thinking of some minor stuff. Like a project, I have to do. I don't really wanna go to school tomorrow but I kind of have to but it's never really that bad. I have made a few friends and enjoy most of my classes. Lately, I've been getting a lot of attention from people. I don't know why. I feel like my looks are average but who am I to say? My mom is getting ready and then we'll go out. I still have no idea where we're going. Maybe out to eat or shopping for Christmas decorations. That's one thing about my mom, she loves shopping for holiday decorations. Personally, my favorite part about the holidays is the weeks we get off and the car rides we take to see family. I enjoy car rides because I can listen to music and reflect on anything and everything. Sometimes I get too emotional thinking about the past and by the time I come back into the now I have tears in my eyes. Lately, I have been reflecting a lot which isn't bad but sometimes I get stuck there. That's one of the worst things you can do to yourself cause when you're stuck in the past you can focus on the now which can lead to you losing friends and missing out on new experiences. I have to remind myself I can change the past but I can change how I see the past. Instead of hating myself or others. I try to be grateful for those experiences. Even when it comes to some of my worse traumas. I try to think of it as a learning experience or I use the knowledge I gained to give advice or help guild someone to a better place. I've been told by some of my friends that I give great advice. Which I hope I do. Besides all that stuff, my mom came downstairs but she's looking for something. I'm guessing she's looking for her card which means we're probably going grocery shopping. Well, she told me we're going Christmas decorations shopping and getting something to eat.
12:57 pm
We just got done eating. I had french toast and french fries. my mom and sister had waffles.
10:23 pm
I'm not going to lie. I forgot to write early. I was closing out my tabs and saw this. So I'll tell you what I did. So I went to the store and my mom bought a lot of Christmas decorations. It was raining so we had to rush to the car. I worked on my project and started my other one. I ate oatmeal and turkey for dinner. I also played a game and wrote a poem while on the phone with my friend

♥︎Emotions thought the day♥︎
📍Trigger warning📍
I had a mix of emotions after eating I wanted to throw up but I didn't. I have been having these thoughts a lot or just wanting to starve myself but I've been trying my best to fight them. I also had anxiety and I don't really know why but I've been feeling really anxious the last 4 days. I tried painting and took pills for it just to be left feeling the same a few minutes later.

I have to go to bed since I have school tomorrow soooo goodnight♥︎