"I wish he was here."
This is what I think to myself a lot
There are moments where, out of everything in the world, all I want is you to be there with me at that moment
This happens very often and I don't know if I like this feeling or hate it
I could be watching a movie and I would see you watching the movie with me
I could be walking outside and you'd be there with your arm around me complaining about how cold it is
I could be laying in bed falling asleep and you'd be there close to me and asleep
I could be singing and you'd be there playing the piano
I could be at an audition and you'd be in the corner of the room and be cheering for me
But the fact is I have to stop romanticizing this past relationship
That relationship I have such a hard time getting over
It was never sunshine
80% of it was midnight rain
I sometimes forget how you treated me
The texts you would send me in the middle of the night saying how much you hate me
For example,
"Im doing better, fuck you. And your friends. I don't give a shit anymore."
Or
*missed call*
"Hey I miss you and I just wanted to tell you I love you."
*missed call*
After each one of these texts, they all lead to tears or something worse
And yet somehow somewhere deep in my heart I still miss you.
"I wish you were here."
(True story lol and those texts were also real.)
