TejRan : Escape The Ordinary

Love Of A Lifetime - 1

Dear Diary,

It’s been a while since I have written something, the day Sunny entered my life I never felt the need to write about my feelings anymore, I had someone with whom I can share anything anytime, my best friend Karan Kundrra.

*She chuckled sadly as a teardrop rolled out from her right eye*

But today something happened, something I really can’t share with him it’s not like I don’t want to I just can’t. How can I tell my best friend I LOVE him more than anything in this world when he doesn’t? Today when Aai and Mumma asked us about our future they thought we love each other, I looked at him and he just sat there without any expression as he didn’t listen to whatever Aai and Mumma said. I understood that you are not in love with me, but what about my heartbeats that listen to you? You took away all my dreams. I am ready to give my life for your love Sunny for your love. Do you know what the worst part is? I can’t even blame Sunny for all of this, it was me who fell in love with him madly and irrevocably but to him, I am just his best friend I have always been that for the past 5 years, just a best friend.’

How did you become so important to me? How and why Sunny? Having you around is my greatest happiness and my biggest weakness.

I laughed to ease the situation and control my tears and told our parents that we are just Friends, and when you agreed and laughed with me my heart broke into million pieces. But no Tejasswi you have to gather yourself you can’t lose his friendship, you love him it’s your problem not his, he is my best friend and always will be that just My Friend.

I have no complaints against a life without you, yet a life without you is not a life at all.

*She closed the diary and wiped her tears away from her face*

‘Hi, Mera Laddoo…’ Karan said as he called her.

‘Hi…’ She replied dryly.

‘Laddoo are you all right? You didn’t even meet me before you left. Kya hua hai Laddoo?’ He asked softly, concern lacing his tone.

‘Nothing Karan, I’ll talk to you later. I am going to sleep.’

She disconnected the call without waiting for his answer.

*Just not tonight Sunny, I won’t be able to control myself today, I need some space and time. *

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Hi…

Ummm… I don’t know what to write, but Laddoo always says that whenever you can’t explain your feelings to someone write it down on paper that’s what I am going to do today. Laddoo… Tejasswi Prakash Wayangkar came into my life 5 years 4 months and 23 days back, I can describe that day as the best day of my 24th October 2017. Obviously, I remember every detail, I found the Love of my life, the restlessness of my heart My Laddoo.

*He chuckled*

Today Mumma and Aai asked us do we love each other, I went numb how did they know I haven’t told about my feelings to anyone, does everyone know? Does Laddoo know it too? All these thoughts clouded my mind when I heard her laugh and tell everyone that we are just friends, I joined in because I already know we are just friends she is not in love with me, but I don’t know something was off her laugh was not real. I can do anything for her smile, her laugh is my strength, and on the call too she called me “Karan”, more than my one-sided love for her, even maybe more than death what hurt me the most is her resentment, her annoyance for me. I don’t know how I will be able to live without her ever, I want her my heart is saying that it wants to attain her, it needs her. I want to tell her how much I love her, I want to keep her safe in my arms always, and I want whether I remain there or not, she just remains there somewhere in me.

Since I met you I have started to become yours, now it’s enough I want you laddoo, not just as my best friend but as my life partner. My heart is impatient and not at peace and you are my peace my sukoon. I'll make you go totally crazy for me I'll enter your heart and make it mine, just like you did with mine. You're my home and I’ll make sure to make my heart your home too, I’ll keep you safe in my arms always and forever. You're mine and I will become yours.

I know you are a tough nut to crack but ab jo mujhe chaahiye voh toh mail leke rahoonga.

*He closed his diary with an ear-to-ear smile… He knew what he needs to do now. He wants his Laddoo...*

You’re my best friend my companion my soulmate let me take you in my arms. My world exists wherever I find you my heart was all alone when I crashed into you it went crazy I'm living incomplete I need you… I'll sacrifice myself for you, and your Love….

Hiee everyone...

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