Since We Were Kids

Chapter 11

Jason and I get got back to his apartment and I went to get an ice pack for his eye while he sits on the couch.

"How are you feeling?" I ask.

"My eye is hurting, what were you doing with him anyways?" He asks wincing at me putting the ice pack on his eye.

"Do we really need to get into this?"

"Yes, I wanna know." He says.

"What were you doing with that girl?"

"She's just a friend."

"So why did she get so mad when she found out you had a girlfriend?" He slides me closer to him and gives me a smile.

"I've never been able to get things by you."

"No you haven't ." I say sliding back over to put space between us.

"In all honesty, it really wasn't how it looked. She was friends with someone at a gig and she wanted to hangout today. I didn't tell her I had a girlfriend because I didn't know if I did anymore. But Tracy, it's killing me knowing what I did to you. I can even begin to explain how sorry I am. Tracy I love you and only you, baby."

"I love you Jason, but things are becoming different between us." I say and he looks confused.

"What are you talking about? I know lately we've been having a couple of rough patches but we can get through it."

"I don't know Jason.."

"Please baby...?" I take a deep breath and look in his eyes. He kinda looks hurt or upset or something. I love Jason, I love him so much, but lately it's just been so difficult being with him. All the fighting and accusations, I can't really take it.

"What if I let you have some time to think about things? I owe you at least that." He says to me and im actually shocked that he's willing to give me time. I nod and kiss his cheek, I get my purse and head out the door for home.

I lay in bed thinking about what I should do, I'm not sure whether or not im ready to go back to Jason after what's happened. He's always been, you know rude, but he's actually just different now. I'm not sure why, maybe because I've been spending time with Harry, but I don't think he should worry about Harry and I.

In the middle of my thoughts I hear tapping on my bedroom window. I look over and I see Harry.

"What are you doing here?" I ask opening the window.

"I wanted to talk to you."

"Why didn't you use the front door?"

"I thought this was cooler, can I come in?" I nod and he climbs into my room. I walk over and sit on my bed and he stands there with his hands in his pockets.

"So...?" I say.

"I'm sorry."

"For what?"

"For hitting him, though it felt pretty good." I let out a small laugh.

"Thank you but he's okay and he did kinda deserve it. I shouldn't have gotten mad you and told you to leave. That was wrong of me."

"No I understand, don't be sorry about that. I shouldn't have reacted the way I did I should've stayed out of it. I'm sorry Tracy." He says and he comes and sits next to me.

"No don't say sorry, I'm tired of hearing 'Im sorry' from everyone."

"What do you wanna hear?" The sound you make when I'm -

"Tracy? You okay?" He says interrupting my thoughts.

"Yes I'm okay, I just don't wanna hear apologizes anymore. I want the truth and I want you to just say it."

"The truth?" He says running his fingers through his hair.

"Yes, the truth." He takes a breath and smashes his lips to mine. He's now hovering over me as I lay on the bed, not breaking our kiss. He takes my hands into his and slides them above my head then slides his hands down my body slowly. I feel like I'm on fire, like im drunk from his touch and high from his kiss. Moans are escaping my mouth and then his following.

I wrap my fingers in his hair and it's so intoxicating, i tug a little and he moans more. My legs on either side of him and he presses down between them, I feel the bulge through his pants. I need to stop this isn't right, but it feels so good.

"Stop.." I say breaking the fire between us and he looks down and me and begins to rub my cheek with his thumb.

"What wrong?" He says through the heavy breathing.

"I shouldn't be doing this ..."

"What do you mean?" I slide out from under him and we both sit up on the bed.

"Jason wants me to be with him and he has given me some time to think about things."

"What's to think about?"

"Harry you don't understand, I've been with him for so long now and yes I know he's not the nicest person in the world but I don't know. There's still some part of me that still wants him..."

"He's just going to keep hurting you and you can't deny that what you feel for me is more than some small crush. And I know for sure what you felt just now, was something more than you and I could both explain. I have feelings for you, I don't know what it is but I feel so drawn to you. When I'm around you I feel this sort of power or fire feeling that makes me want more. I know you have to feel something too."

"I can't lie to you, I do feel .... something. I'm just not sure what it is, I mean I don't know. I wouldn't want this to be some rebound kind of thing and I wouldn't want it to be a sex kind of thing."

"I don't want just sex from you, love. I want all of you, I want to wake every morning next to you and hear you say how horrible you look in the mornings though you look beautiful no matter what. I want you to walk around in my cloths like its no big deal because it's not a big deal. I want to fight with over what to watch and how cold it is in the apartment. I wanna go to bed next to you every night and look forward to waking up just so I can see you again. Tracy, I want so much with you, but mostly I just want to prove to you what happiness really feels like. And what it feels like to really have some care for you." I feel a tear run down my cheek and he wipes it away with his thumb. I feel like my heart just exploded because I've always wanted to hear those worlds but I never actually expected to hear them.

"I think I love you, Tracy."

Hey guys! I'm SOOO sorry I haven't updated in so long but fear no more I will be updating more !! How has everyone been? How was this chapter?? How's your summer? Lots of questions AHHH! Haha anyways fav if you like this chapter and comment if you wanna answer the questions!! Love you guys!!!! XXXX