Confessions of a Closet Introvert

So I Offended Another Person...

First of all, I'd just like to apologize on behalf of myself for my inappropriate behavior in many various situations both online and in real life. As I've established, contact with other people is not my strong suit, and there has been many a time that I just blurt out something offensive or inappropriate or plain mean when it was a very bad time to do so.

Like this one time, I was walking with my friend to class and this guy came up and like jumped on her and looked like he was attacking her. She like jumped away and was like turning back and yelling things like "Oh my god, why do you always do that?" And me, thinking I was being a good, supportive friend, turned to her and said, "Don't worry, he's an ass."

Little did I know that this kid's older sister was right behind me when I said this.

And when she confronted me about it, as a good sister would, I just continued to make more of an ass out of myself, shoving my foot deeper into my mouth with every word I said. I felt terrible about it afterwards.

Something similar happened just the other day. There were people saying all over the place that this kid at my school was getting expelled and left school for good on Friday. I was glad, because he was rude and he threatened to rape me as a joke one time.

I was talking to some of my friends on the Monday after, certain that this kid had been expelled, saying things about me being happy that he was expelled. I said "I'm glad he's gone" when my friend gave me a look like i should stop talking. Then I saw the guy I was talking about out of the corner of my eye pass us in the hall.

Now, at this point I was pretty sure he only heard me say "I'm glad he's gone," which could mean anybody, but then my friend like whisper shouted at me "He's right behind you" pretty loudly. So that kid probably hates me now, which I don't care much about, but I still feel a bit bad about.

Not to mention that I was kinda mean to that friend I was talking to just later on that day, which I feel awful about. I would apologize, but I'm not sure if it even affected him or if he's already forgotten about it.

So you see, I'm not great at getting people to like me, or at holding my tongue. I speak before I think, which gets me in trouble sometimes, like when I shouted really loudly and cheerfully during Health class "VAGINA!" when I thought it was the correct answer to a question (It wasn't).

So this apology is expanded to all people I have offended or been rude towards and to all those I will end up offending and come off as rude to. This isn't an excuse, I just thought it would be good for you to know that I'm not thinking when I say things like that.

Thanks for being understanding.

-Tara