This morning I was taking an exam, unfortunately I forgotten half of the answers to the questions and I didn't write them down anywhere. I got really stressed out and I rarely ever ask for help so during the times I accidentally made the text turn blue and couldn't get it to turn back to normal, I hit my Chromebook.
I hit my Chromebook too hard and the screen turned into lines and I couldn't see anything. This stressed me out even more and I started crying. I called for my mom and she didn't hear me which stressed me out even more until she finally heard me. I didn't know what to do and I was crying so much because I thought I was going to fail the exam.
My mom went to call technical support and told me to get the laptop my dad got me but I was so emotional it was vague and I sat in my bed thinking she would get it. She didn't and told me to find it but I didn't know where it was. I didn't want to go look for it. I had to follow my mom anyway and we Found in my brother's room and I didn't know how to turn it on, because I was crying mom.
I was overwhelmed and my mom said I should stop stop whining and that it won't solve anything. I was crying and overstimulated. I didn't know what to do. And she had the audacity to say that to me. I wanted to say something to her but I didn't know what and I continued crying. Eventually I got onto my school account through her account and technical support and I was able to finish my exam and school.
Here's the thing, my mom works with people with developmental disabilities, she should know how to comfort an overstimulated child. But instead she told me to stop whining like she was expecting me to know what to do. That laptop was different then the one I use, did she expect me to know how to use it instantly? Apparently. I love my mom, but she should've kept her mouth shut. I was crying and clearly overstimulated and she still said that. You shouldn't say that to an overstimulated child. Hell, I started crying when I was writing this.
Sometimes I hate being autistic.
