My Emo Life

The Mistake (2 years later)

Saturday Night,

Jordan and I just got into an argument. He accused me of not being a great mom to our children and apparently I went out drinking too. I started to cry and Jordan needed some space. So I decided to Run into the bathroom and I made the worst mistake of my life. I started to Cut myself all over again and then my daughter came in and saw me bleeding to death. She yelled " MOMMY, PLEASE DON'T DIE!!!! :(". She yelled for Jordan and he started to cry and told me that he's sorry and didn't mean for me to do this to myself.

Jordan, then called 911 and the ambulance and police came to our home and took me to the E.R. I can't believe my daughter had to see this happen, She's only 3 years old. I'm so Fucking messed up. I'm sorry to my whole family for hurting them like this.

15 minutes later.......

It's 10pm at night and I am in so much pain. I was bleeding so much, I thought I was going to die. I don't want to lose my life and lose my husband and my children. I pray to God that he would save my life and let me live.