Desperate Measures (On Hold)

Chapter 13

Once again, he was turning up at Julian's door in the middle of the night- Or well, he supposed it was morning now. He hesitated for only a second before knocking. It didn't take long for Julian to throw the door open and pull Reese into his arms, surprising him. 

When he pulled back, Julian was checking him over, making sure he was okay. "I'm sorry if I said something that hurt you. That wasn't my intention."

Reese blinked. He had come here to apologize. He wasn't expecting one instead. "I actually came to say I was sorry."

Now it was Julian's turn to be surprised. 

"I just... I haven't had a good history with all of this," he gestured between them. "But I want to try."

Julian smiled. "That's all I can ask for."

He pulled him inside, shutting the door to the cold night and then their lips found each other's. Reese allowed Julian to take the lead, parting his lips with his tongue and exploring his mouth. Reese felt himself harden as Julian's hands came down to his waist, gripping his hips. 

He was being pushed back, surprised when the back of his knees hit a surface and he was falling back onto Julian's bed. When or how they got to the bedroom was a mystery to Reese but one he didn't have the time to solve before Julian was climbing on top of him and exploring every inch of him with his lips. 

"If you want me to stop," Julian whispered against his skin. "All you have to do is say so. We can go as slow as you want."

But this time Reese didn't want Julian to stop. He needed to overcome his fear. He needed to try. So he threaded his fingers through Julian's hair, giving the curls an anxious tug. 

Julian received the message, undoing the button on Reese's pants and pulling them off. Reese sucked in a sharp breath as Julian parted his legs, lips moving up his thighs. Reese shivered, parting his legs further to give Julian better access but he still didn't touch him there. He continued kissing his inner thighs before stopping and sucking on the skin, leaving light purple marks. 

Reese moaned, pre-cum oozing from his cock, begging to be touched. Finally, finally, Julian gave in, wrapping his mouth around the head, teasing with his tongue before taking him all the way in. 

Reese's hips bucked, hands flying to the sheets so he didn't end up pulling Julian's hair right out. 

Julian went at a slow, torturous pace, allowing Reese to feel every flick of his tongue, driving him insane. Julian did everything, bringing him to the edge, pulling him back down, again and again. But he never let Reese reach his climax. 

And he didn't want to. Not like this. 

Reese gently pushed his legs together around Julian's head, making him look up. Without words, he seemed to understand what Reese wanted and came back up, looking down into Reese's eyes. His stare was intense, sending shivers down Reese's spine and heat to spread through his stomach all the way up to his face. "Are you sure you're ready? We don't have to do this now."

Reese wasn't sure if he would ever be ready but this is what he knew he had to do if he wanted to replace those memories with something... Good. 

He nodded.

Julian's lips quirked up before coming down to meet his own. Distracted, Reese didn't even hear the snap of the bottle of lube being opened and closed. Didn't realize what was happening until he felt Julian's cool wet fingers slid against his ass.

He jerked away, involuntary reaction but Julian was quick to soothe him with his lips pressing against Reese's forehead. 

The pain quickly turned over to pleasure, his toes curling as Julian fingered him. He gasped as those fingers stroked something inside of him. Julian did it again and again, turning Reese into a moaning mess. "Please," he gasped. "I want-"

He pulled Julian down as he removed his fingers from him and positioned himself at Reese's entrance. Their eyes locked as Julian slowly pushed himself inside. It was nothing compared to his fingers and Reese had to bite back a wince but Julian was quick to distract him with kisses all over his face, his neck, stopping to suck on his ear. 

Then Julian was all the way in and Reese had to squeeze his eyes shut against the pain. 

"Breath," Julian said, cupping his cheek. 

Reese's heart stuttered. Slowly, Julian started moving, watching Reese to make sure he was okay. Once again, it didn't take long for the pain to fade and pleasure spring up in it's place. Julian found that spot inside of him again, hitting it until Reese was begging for him to go faster, harder, deeper.

When Julian reached down between them and touched Reese's erection, it was all over. He came with a cry, hips lifting off the bed to meet Julian's final thrust before he came inside of him.

Reese had never felt as good as he did then. He had never experienced pleasure on that level before and doing it with Julian, who was now pulling him to his chest, Reese couldn't help but feel loved.