Dron, Our Story

Guilty

Draco POV

A few days later. Its a New Year and the start to the second semester. Just as im about to leave the Manor, I tell Mother and Father goodbye. "Goodbye, son. Remember, the sooner you start the task, the quicker it will finish and the Dark Lord will be pleased" He says and I nod, feeling uneasy. I hug my Mother and she smiles slightly. "Bye" I say to her and go to the Hogwarts Express. The way there, I think, like I have been doing the past week. My left arm hurts at random times, sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night from the pain. Then I cant sleep. I have a few self made scratches on it since it makes the pain go away. When Im reading, his face pops up and I no longer want to read. Whilst eating and showering, I think. Seeing the disgusting dark black skull on my foream makes me want to puke. I cant let anyone see it. Im scared. I dont know how im going to live like this.. I arrive on the train and put my bag on top of the compartments. "Hi Draco" I hear from behind me and I turn around. Its Pansy. "Oh hey.." I reply and help her put her bag up. We sit down and after a few minutes, Blaise also sits by us. We talk for a few minutes, mostly them, I occasionaly listen. I hate that im lying saying I spent the holdiays well.. But I cant do anything about it. I dont even want to think what will happen if I tell someone, like Pansy or Ron."Draco?" I suddenly hear. I look up "Huh" Pansy looks at me in surprise. "You okay Draco? You've been spacing out a lot" She asks with a worried tone. "Im fine" I reply and look away. They glance at eachother. Fuck, I have to act normal. The Train starts and we go back to Hogwarts for the second semester. Once we arrive, I take my bag and leave the train. I head into Hogwarts and go to the Great Hall. I sit at the Slytherin table and sigh, waiting for the ceremony to start. I look around and see Ron by Granger and Potter. He grins while talking to them. I admire him for a few seconds until our eyes meet. He smiles, I reply with a slight smile, then look away. 3 week skip. I walk towards the Great Hall by myself. I sigh, thinking about how I have to do the task when suddenly I hear behind me "Malfoy". I turn around, Snape. He looks at me "Come" He says shortly and I nod. Oh no, I wonder what this is about even though I can guessWe enter his office. "Listen Draco, do you know your task?" He asks. I nod "You need to start acting on it before the Dark Lord gets angry" He says while opening his . potions cabinet. I feel nerves run through my body. "I have figured out that Slughorn wants to give this potion to Dumbledore as a gift at his party." He says showing me a small bottle with some weird liquid in it. "I have added poison to the potion, you just have to place it on his potions tray" He says and I nod. He gives me the potion. "Do not tell anyone about this, you hear me?" He asks and I nod. "Good, you can go now". I put the potion into my pocket and head into the hall, feeling uneasy. The Next Day. After lessons, I walk to Slughorns office, knowing he must be there. I have the poisoned liquid already in my pocket. I feel nerves run through my body as I stand in front of his door. Fuck. I knock and after a few seconds it opens. Slughorn eyes me and then smiles. "Hello Draco, is there something you need?" He asks. "Uh yeah, I wanted to ask about a specific potion im really intrested in" I start telling him about some random potion I found in our potions book. He lets me come in and I observe his office, seeing where the potion tray is. "Do you want me to show you how to make it?" He asks. "Yes please" I act very intrested. He goes into his little cabinet and gets the ingredients. Perfect. I quickly put the potion on the tray and make it look as if its always been there. I head back yo my original place. A weight gets lifted off my shoulders, I did it. 30 minutes later. He finishes showing me the potion. I sigh, Finally. Ive been acting intrested and suprised, when really I just want to leave already. I thank him and head out of his office, going to my room. On my way, I hear a group of students coming my way. I dont mind it and continue walking when I realise who it is. My eyes widen. They turn the corner. Its Ron, Potter and Granger. They look at me and come closer, Ron grinning. "Hey" They stop by me. I greet them. "Ive been looking for you, where were you?" Ron asks. "I was in the library, checking for a book" I lie, a pain is in my stomach. I feel so bad lying straight to his face. He smiles sweetly at me. "Alright" He replies. "Well now that youve found eachother, you can go hang out. We'll be in the coomon room" Granger says with a smirk. Ron grins "Sure, if you want?" He asks me. I nod slightly. "Lets go your room" We say bye to the two Gryffindors and go to my room. We chat on the way there and he tells me about his day. We havent been seeing eachother recently. I feel bad when im with him. Not in a way that im bored or something. Its just that guilt that I cant tell him anything. He tells me everything about his life and im just so distant. It makes me want to cry. "You okay, Dray? You seem sad" He suddenly asks, making me snap out of my thoughts. "Huh? Oh um, yeah, im fine" I say and flash a fake smile. He looks at me concerned. Suddenly he wraps his arm around me and pulls us closer. "You can tell me everything, you know that right?" He asks. I sigh. I want to. You dont know how bad I want to. But I cant. Its too dangerous. I gulp "I know, thank you Ron" He smiles lightly and kisses my cheek. I feel warmth. I feel so safe with him, even though I know im far from that. We reach my room and sit down onto my bed, Ron chattering about something the twins did recently, all happy and joyful. I just listen, occasionally spacing out and feeling a sad feeling hit me when remembering what I did today. 

AUTHORS NOTE

im so sorry i havent posted in such a long time, ive been busy and kind of lost motivation to writing, im going to try continue and finish this story as soon as possible.