Thoughts of a lonely lover

I wanna live in a constant state of love

Where things like bills & stress don't effect the balance

Hugs for no reason that remind me that I am safe

Shoulder rubs to release tension gathered throughout the day

"What's on your mind?"'s for the quiet moments

& "come here"s for when I need you close

Cuddles that reassure me of a lack of loneliness

& kisses for every second I've miss you

I want to be at peace with my partner even when tempers are flaring

A safe space even in the midst of hell

Good mornings & good nights that blend together because time doesn't really exist

Conversations that seem to never end whether verbal or nonverbal

Hand holds for when I need grounding

Understanding

True understanding

Acknowledgement of our shortcomings but a will to healthily figure out how to overcome them together