haha currently freaking out and gonna put it here so maybe I can feel coherent. So as I said on Friday I think it was in cooking class my platonic daughter was guessing who I like to try and get my heart rate up because she's a little gremlin(affectionate) and part way through the conversation my crush's friends joined in and eventually guessed it. But here's the thing those people are also my former friends(d,b,m) with m it has been a more recent drift but with d and b it happened a few years ago and it was a pretty hard line from friends to strangers. Yesterday (Saturday) another friend of mine (j) messaged me asking if I liked anyone and after I made a denial j asked if I liked my crush (b) I again denied but did admit to liking someone. I dismissed this thinking "silly rumour but I'm sure my friend will vouch for me if asked and it will be gone soon".
Except now with tomorrow being Monday I'm panicked if d, b, m told people or if someone else overheard and talked. After guessing b d asked/told me something mentioning me and b's names (I didn't hear her so I just responded with a hm sound). I mean im not worried about homophobia from people really relevant to the situation ( B figured me out and also is queer and my friends are good) but not everyone knows about me being bisexual and from those who do I get freaking barked at which is not something i want more of. So yeah that's my slight ramble about what is worrying me at the current moment.
