Tonight i'm sad. i'm sad because i realized that you and i can't be friends anymore. that all the laughter and the looks connecting to each other are simply a memory of the past, a memory that is gonna turn into and sad and painful souvenir. a souvenir that i will hide in my drawers to forget about. a souvenir that will never really go. a souvenir that will remind me that i couldn't fix it.. that i couldn't fix us..
as much as i loved you, i have to let you go. all i feel when i look at you is who i used to be. this young little that used to be a ray of sunshine. i used to feel happy around you, like one of those paintings that everyone wants but can't really have. like i was the best friend in the world, like i was your friend. like we didn't have to talk to understand each other, but now i realized that all of it was just illusion.
i don't regret it. you taught me a lot, and a lot that i didn't know. but you also gave me a lot of pain. i am grateful still. grateful that we met, grateful that we shared, grateful that we laughed, grateful that we listened, grateful that we joked, grateful that we grew.
i wish for that souvenir to turn into something i'm not afraid to look at no more. something that i can look back on as a lesson learned. something that would make me smile.
tonight i'm sad, but i'll be better tomorrow when the sun shines.
