The new one in town

Youre really pretty

I wake up to three pairs of eyes over me I squint and sit up "what happened?" I asked Jaz.
"You passed out.. Lils we need to talk about-" she stops mid sentence and looks at the guys.
Then through mind link she says "we need to talk about Kyle" I scrunch up my eyebrows "why?" I ask confused. "He's your mate" she responds.
My mouth is left agape, I'm scared to look to my left, not wanting to meet his eyes. I take a deep breath and say "how could that be possible I mean look at me" I say to jaz, confusing the guys on this one sided conversation, or so it appears to them.
"I'm afraid if you don't take action, he's going to do what he just did, making you pass out. "
"what did he do?" I ask confused. "He did something he shouldn't be doing with someone else instead of with you " she responds
I sigh and de envelopes me in a hug. I hear a low growl from my right and look at Taylor. "Calm down would ya, she's my best friend " I say to him. I let go of her and stand up going into the bathroom with out another word.

-- Kyle's point of view --
*right after he leaves the room and she passes out*

I decide to mind link one of the girls I had a thing with and tell her to come to my place. She's there in less than ten minutes and we started along out before I hear jaz scream "LILY!" I ignore the scream as things between Sophia and I get intense.

*after Sophia leaves*

I decide to go to Lily's room and the I see my mate on the bed completely knocked out cold. Jaz looks at me in disgust and then lily wakes up. I mind link Taylor
"What happened?"
"While you were off entertaining your guest Lily passed out" he replies simply.
I get mad and block his mind link looking at lily as her and jaz have a mind link
"But how could that be possible, I mean, look at me" she says out loud looking at jaz. They hug and then lily goes into the bathroom and I hear the shower curtain slide and the bath run.

Jaz mind links me
"She's your f*cking mate and you go next door to have sex with a side b*tch, you don't even want her do you ? " she looks at me her eyes turning pitch black. She's furious.
I look at her and ignore her.
"Do you even know why she passed out? " she asks out loud to me
"No" I mumble looking at her
"It's because you went with someone else to do something only mates should do " she says mad "you're going to have to make it up to her because I Explained to her exactly what happened and exactly why she passed out" she says simply to me and Taylor and her leave the room.

-- Lily's p.o.v. --
As soon as she gets in the bath.
I knew it. My mate doesn't care about me. I mean I understand he's an alpha and he deserves something better than me. He went and had sex with some girl right right after he finds out were mates.

I'm not good enough for him.
I sigh and cry silently in the bath as my insecurities and bad habits get the best of me. I get the razor left on the bathtub and draw thee small lines on my right wrist .
One for my parents
One for me not being good enough
And one for doing this to myself.

After another ten minutes I step out of the shower and get dressed in comfortable shorts and a long sleeve shirt and I go to bed locking my door and turn in off the lights. Letting the darkness consume my thoughts until I drift off too sleep.

--the next morning--
I wake up and get dressed for school following my morning routine ignoring Kyle at all costs.

He doesn't deserve to have such a mess for a mate

I get in my car and head to school. I walk to my locker and come face to face with a girl I have never seen before. But I'm guessing her name is Sophia considering it is embroidered in her pink crop top.
"Excuse me you're standing in front of my locker" I say politely not really wanting to get in a fight today.
"Hey new girl you're the alphas mate right?" She says and laughs
"I- I don't know " I reply "can you please move" I say to her.
She whispers in my ear "you aren't good enough for him that's why he called me over last night" she says and smirks
I push passed her to get to my locker and go into my locker getting the books I need for my class and say
"Well I hope you two had fun." Walking away to class sitting in the back and falling asleep.
When class is over I walk out and come face to face with Kyle. "Umm. Sorry bye" I say softly and walk away as he stares at me dazed. I decide to skip the rest of school and just go home. I lay on my bed doing homework and listening to music out loud.
Then...
There's a knock on my door.
"Lily we need to talk " a husky voice says as the door is opened revealing the one and only.
Alpha

"Alpha" I reply drily
"You don't have to call me by that name you know" he says and I reply with.
"Yes I do, it's your title. It's not like I'm of any importance" venom laced in my words.
"It's not like I'm someone you need" I say after he doesn't reply anything
" I'm sorry " he replied
"What did you need to talk about alpha?" I ask drily.
"You are my mate." He says Cooley
"Oh no, that can't be I'm pretty sure it's that girl, what's her name?" I pretend to ponder about her name for a second or two. "Ah yes, Sophie or Sophia right? I mean I know my mate wouldn't go around sleeping with other girls if he had me" I say pushing his buttons though inside I'm hurting, I won't let him know that. He doesn't deserve to know that.
He starts getting aggravated. " I am your mate" he says to me stone cold trying to stay calm.
"It's obvious I'm not enough so just reject me already " I say drily a flash of hurt runs through my eyes before they turn emotionless again.
"I've been hurt to much to be hurt by my own mate, you and I don't belong together the moon goddess made a mistake And it's pretty clear. So just reject me before I get even more hurt " I say softly looking at him.
He storms out and I lock my door and start crying.
Why doesn't he just reject me ?
Why does he want to keep hurting me?
Confused and sad I go and wash my face then I step outside in the back yard and light a cigarette. I don't smoke always, only wen the pain or the past or people get to me to much. Just as I light it I have to put it out because little kids run around me, and they don't deserve to have to endure the smell or see me smoking.

"You're really pretty" a little girl with flowers in her hair smiles at me and says
"Thank you honey " I reply as she runs off I stay there contemplating everything.

You're really pretty.

I wish...