How do you live in love with a fictional character? (English version)

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That waking up every day thinking about the same person becomes exhausting.

You think that every second of your life should be dedicated exclusively to thinking about how to let him know how you feel, but without sounding ridiculously pathetic. And that's when you realize the great obstacle that presents itself. That big problem that you know has no solution. That difficulty that torments you every time you question why you fell in love with that person. Why you did it? You do not know. Nobody does it. Because of course, you fell in love with someone who didn't exist. Someone you know you could never even meet face to face: A fictional character.

How to live with those feelings?

You are looking for a source of relief, but the fear of being mocked makes you close to talking about it. Damn, I know my feelings are real.

You criticize yourself, you make fun of yourself. Why? It's not normal, right?

You think you have fallen into madness. And when you feel like nothing can get worse, you sink deeper into those feelings. You feel more and more obsessed and interested in such a character. More and more thoughts invade your mind. Your emotional stability hangs on an almost invisible thread, and you know that something is wrong with you.

You still want to vent. Let go and say that "I'm in love with a fictional character", but fear is a wall that forces you not to do it.

You don't want to be looked at weird. Let them take you for crazy. Let them laugh at you. Let them think it's a joke... You can't allow it.

Despite being aware that every time you talk about love, that person flows into your thoughts, reminding you how screwed up you are.

And you still can't allow it. You can't just drop it around. You know you love him, and you don't know how it happened. You know you're not crazy, but you don't know how to prove it.

Because that's how you live in love with a fictional character; loving day by day a group of simple and insignificant pixels, objectively said, but being from your point of view the character you love.

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