Shivshakti : A girl who doesn't know her potential

Chapter : 1 All I Remember

I still don't get it why people want me to interact with them ? Why can't they mind their own business and let me do the same ? It's a little hard for me to fit in , I've never been in these scenarios before, I was not sent to school until I learnt how to have control over my powers , and as soon as I learnt it .... Damn! I ended up being sent to school out of the blue ! But now I am kind of getting used to this environment for it has been couple of years since I've been here .
And another thing that keeps nagging me is that I don't remember half of my childhood , as though I just skipped that part of my life , all I remember is getting taught by my father how to meditate and control my anger , not use my powers to fight with my sister, and papa's death . I don't know how he died , all I remember is that one day he was just gone . It took me years to get over that as I was very close to him. His death has been the biggest mystery of my life.
But one more thing that has caused huge dilemma in my life is , as far as I remember, that I had a sister , an elder one , and I can't just wash it off my mind that where had she gone now ? Whenever I ask mother , she says I "She had gone where Hari wanted her to go" or ,"She wasn't destined to be with us" . She doesn't give me the right and exact answer ! As a teenager it has always been a hustle to be taken seriously by my mother . I can't just focus on the things that are important for me , just because of these questions that always pop up in my mind like the cookies when I go to a new website .
Anyways let's get back to where I am now , in a class where the teacher teaches us how the alphabets entered maths and how do we deal with them . But all i am thinking about is getting back home and get my hands over my Veena , it has been a great escape honestly , whenever I play it , the worries seem to just go away .
But one more thing on my mind right now is I haven't seen Aryan anywhere in the class today , he never ( i mean NEVER) misses the math lecture . Everyone says he must have fallen sick . But I don't think so . I don't know why is it even bothering me because I am always cold to everyone and nothing should bother me. He and I are kind of friends , because we both hate the same subject , AI . I don't know why everyone likes it , they don't know the fact that AI does hold the potential to overpower us in the future ( No wonder if AI robots become the one god Kalki has to fight )
But even though I despise humans I can sense their pain and suffering , and somehow feel bad for them and try to help them . And that's the case with Aryan too , I can sense it . Even if he's not present I can sense it . He's in fear. As though he's about to lose something or someone he cares for. And that feels so similar to my condition , I am always in a constant fear of losing someone I care for .
And I don't know why? I want to help him now .