Draw the Stars

What have I done?

Monday through Friday I stayed in my room despite the multiple efforts made to get me back out. Why did she have this effect on me? When I broke up with her was perfectly fine, well sorta.  I guess I never exactly pictured her with anybody else except me. I wonder what she's doing now. Probably cuddling him or, better yet, doing you -know - what.  Try not to imagine it, I push those thoughts out of my head and got out of bed. I need to get outside. My week's been so unproductive it's crazy.  Pushing up in the blinds, the sun beamed through my window and raise a sunshine shown on everything. It was blinding and for a good 2 minutes, I couldn't see anything. I really really need to get outside.

Opening my bathroom doors, I turned on the faucet and washed my face. I really need to shower but, right now, I just wasn't feeling it. Closing the knob, I wiped my face with the towel and stepped out of my room. My apartment was littered with pizza boxes and other takeout I bought that week. Pulling out the flower from the vase, I poured out the dirty water and added fresh clean water. Lilac was drooping and two paddles had fallen off.  'God' I muttered. What have I done. My life is such a mess, I couldn't even take care of a single flower.

Allowed rain coming from my phone disrupted my thoughts. I walked back into my room to pick it up.

"Hello?" I answered groggily
"  Harry! Oh Harry you're okay!" came Luna's voice through the phone.  " We've all been so worried about you!"
"We?"
"Mhm.  Me, Neville, Dean, Seamus, a little bit of Theo and his friends."  Not Hermione or Ron, I can't believe I got my hopes up.

"Oh"  I sighed, hiding my  disappointment. Why would they care anyway. It's not like we're friends anymore.

" Yeah, and you should probably get back to work."
" Oh fuck."  Work.  In one of my low, drunk moments during the week of  misery,  I filed a two weeks resignition notice on my position as head auror.

"What's up?"
"I don't think I can go back."
"Why not?"
" Let's just say , erm, I quit."

Maybe they'll let me take it back before the two weeks are over.  I hope they do.

"  Well how are you gonna pay rent?"
I mentally face-palmed.

" I hadn't thought of that."
" You can come stay with me and Theo."
" No it's okay.  I'll figure something out."
I don't wanna third-wheel the two.

"Okay but we're always there."
" I know, bye Luna"
"Bye Harry."

Groaning, I threw the phone on the floor and fell onto my bed. My life is such a mess. I closed my eyes, as I tried to think of what I could do. I needed a job, definitely. I needed to get outside, obviously. And I needed to do something about my current situation. Pulling off my shirt, I stood in the mirror. I clearly gained quite a few pounds. So I needed to go to the gym, undoubtedly. But the first thing I needed to do, though, was clean.

I picked up plates another dirty dishes and placed them in the sink, for rinsing. There were a lot of these. Then, the boxes came next. Recycles were never my favorite thing to do. Not the ' save the planet' part but the fact that I had to cut them and squeeze them to fit in the bins for when the people would come. After that, I wiped counters, swept floors, fabreezed the are, since it currently smelt like wine and old, greasy pizza.  And taking a long time, which is pretty much why cleaning was never my favorite thing, that and having to get stains out. I learned good ways to do it since the Dursleys were messy and I'd always be the one to clean up the messes. I specially hated cleaning anything white. Thank God there were barely any stains on my rug. Aunt Petunia to make me stay cleaning her white everything for hours if it ever got to stay on it, even if it wasn't me

The last thing I had to do were dishes, but Mrs. Weasley had taught me a spell on how to get them to do themselves. I really miss her. I'm like a Ron, Hermione, and jenny, Mr. and Mrs. Weasley, along with Bill and the twins, still cared about me. Every Sunday, they still send me letters, inviting me to their Sunday brunch. Ever since Jenny and I split, I stopped going. It would be too awkward. I do miss them though. Mr. Weasley was always talking about Muggles and Bill know how to make everyone laugh. Ron with his dumb but hilarious remarks in her mind is scolding him. George and Fred is coming up with new ideas and their wives playing with the kids. It was always the best. Wonder how they're doing now?

Putting on Gray sweatpants and a plain white t-shirt, I picked up my iPod, grabbed my earphones, put on sneakers and stepped outside. The soft Breeze tickled my nose and the warm sun's heat shone on me.  It was beautiful outside, I can't believe I missed this. Now what to do. I can't go to work, or any jobs for that matter, dressed like this so I decided on just going for a job. There was a small park nearby and it was close enough for me to drive there. I hadn't dogs in so long either, I hope I don't Tire easily. Getting ready I slowly made my way to the park. By the time I got there, I was covered in sweat and out of breath. I took three long breaths before starting to jog again. The parts had an area, shaded and trees, where most people tend to go. I started again at a flower pace, easing back to my normal speed. People who passed me by waved and some stop to talk. I stayed in an area with not many people, so pretty much everyone knew each other. I was surprised by how quickly they've gotten over the fact that "Harry Potter" lived near them.

As I ran, everything around me went by in a wash, my back was drenched with sweat, but my breathing was surprisingly even. The sun danced around the trees as the leaves suede in the breeze. My early morning runs were like this, just a tad bit better, with the bright green trees and golden hours Sun reflecting off-
"Oof."
" Shit, are you okay?" a husky, male voice came from above me as I fell to the ground. Except I never hit it. Strong arms wrapped around my waist as he pulled me back up.
"Y-yeah." I responded, untangling myself from his hands as I tried to stand straight up. In front of me, and black shorts and a gray t-shirt, stood a man with platinum blonde hair, beautiful gray eyes, and perfectly shaped eyebrows that were referred in concern.

" Oh god, did I hurt you?"
I stared at him, Enchanted by his beauty, until I realized one thing.
"Malfoy?" I started, shocked. He stared at me, a little confused.  "What are you doing here?"
" I could say the same about you." He said, after noticing who I was. My scar was showing in space between my  short,  wavy hair.
"I live here."
"Mmm.  Well I just moved here."
Oh god, he lives here too.  Without saying another word, I turned around and sprinted out of the park.  "Potter. Wait!" I heard, but I ignored him. I had to get out of there, and fast.  I couldn't be near him.

Oh ma gawd.  This is the first story I've made on this acc so if you're reading thia, applaud yourself.  I don't really know where this is going but I have the basic story line soooooo... that's good enough ig.

Rn I'm panicking.  I had to do a bunch of activites with some kids and there was this one guy who's on my bus and I never gave two shits about him till now and holy jesus.  I never talked to him and over all didn't care but on the bus today he said something to me so I just looked up and nodded.  Was that okay???  Should I do something else later?? He's kinda cute and a little nice so he's okay but I NEED HELP.

And idk why but he keeps making his way into my mind and its getting annoying.  HOW DO I STOP THIS.