When everything fails Love wins

One step at a time

Me and Wensday get to the dinning hall. We get in line to get food an Enid joins us in line. "hey Skylar how was your first day of classes?" She asks me" I enjoyed all my classes well exapt for math. Who ever enjoys math most enjoy a special kind of torture." I say an all three of us start laughing. "I agree with you there." Enid says an we move up in the line to get our food .

There was many different things to choose from. There was chili, BBQ chicken with fries. There was chocolate milkshakes an I was definitely getting me one of those tonight. I pick some chili an some fries. I'm weird I like dipping my fries in both a milkshake an chili. I wait for Wednesday and Enid then we go sit at our table. I look for Larissa we're she normally sits an didn't find her there so I give my friends my full attention. We talk about different things such as homework the dance what we were wearing. I don't talk much but I do listen to them.

I listen to there conversation until something catches my eye. I see Larissa walking in the dinning hall she was wearing the same thing as earlier. She is so beautiful. I find myself thing. I give up on yelling at myself for my thoughts of her. I was gonna keep having them no matter what I tell myself.

I noticed that she looked a little sad so I wait for her to sit down and then I pull out my phone and text her.

Me: is everything okay? You look a little sad.
Larissa: yes I'm okay just a little tired. It's been a super long day.
Me: okay just wanted to cheek on you.
Larissa: thanks sky that means a lot.

I smile and look up at her. She looked into my eyes and it felt like she was searching my soul. She smiles at me and winks. I hear my name and my attention is pulled back to my friends.

"Are you going to the dance?'' I hear Enid ask me. "yes I'll be there." I really. "do you know what your wearing yet." Wensday asks me "I'm not sure yet I need to go shop for something" I reply. "well maybe we can all go into town tomorrow and look for something" Wensday replies

"I don't plan to wear a dress. This uniform is the closest thing you'll ever see me wear that is girly" I say an Enid an Wensday look at each other then to me. "Well we can go look at suits an we can tell you what we think of them." She says an I smile. I have never had someone support me an what I like so this was all new territory for me. "I would very much enjoy that" I say

They go back to talking to each other an I finish my dinner. When I was done eating I get up an put my dishes on the cart for the kitchen staff to wash them I go to the dinner hall door ways an stop. I look over at Larissa an smile. This woman is gonna be the death of me. But what a beautiful way to die. I think to myself. And walk out an head to my dorm.

When I get to my dorm I go get my diary out of under my pillow an go to my desk an start writing in it.

If she finds me here I'll have to leave again. An I have actually made friends here. An Larissa I can feel her pushing down the walls I have built to protect myself. I don't want to leave. I don't want to have to put Larissa in my past. I want her to be my future. She sees me when nobody else did. Then there's Wensday an Enid. They are the first real friends I have had in what feels like forever and that's saying something because I don't make friends easy.

I get done writing an put it back under my pillow and go into the bathroom. I jump into a steaming hot shower. Larissa finds her way back to my thoughts. I feel arms wrap around me an lips starting to kiss my neck. I throw my head back. All of a sudden it was gone an I open my eyes an release that it was all in my head. She really was getting to me

I finish in the shower an get out I throw on a pair of sweat pants and an t-shirt. When I leave the bathroom I throw on a baggie hoodie because it was a it was a little chilly in the dorm. Just then Wensday walks in.

"Hey Wensday" I say an she looks over at me. "everything okay?" I ask her as she sits on her bed she looked a little frustrated. "Yeah I have just been throwing hints around all day that I want Enid to go to the dance with me." She says an looks down at her hands in her lap

"Why don't you do what you told me and just ask her." I say an Wensday looks up at me an smiles. "You know Skylar you really are a good friend." She says an I simply reply "I try" I say an walk out to the patio that was attached to our dorm.

I begin playing my violin. That helps me clear my mind. I start getting lost in the notes that I'm playing. Some say you can feel my soul in the songs that I play in the meaning in which I play it with. A part of me hope that Larissa so would hear it but I highly doubt that she was listening.

I get done playing and it was dark outside so I bring my violin inside and laid in its case and close it. I go over to my bed and noticed that Wednesday was already asleep. She must have fallen asleep listening to my violin playing. I smile and shake my head, I climb under my blankets and with one last thought of Larissa and fall asleep.