TW: slight attempt of suicide, getting driven to do suicide
Sorry if this sounds emo asf
Zakk was born in Tevyat like any other being, from what his adopted parents said "your parents sacrificed themselves for your safety" was all they kept saying.. but was that really just it? Many questions raise upon his head. Like:
Why did they sacrifice themselves
Did they sacrifice themselves
What do they look like
Things round up in his head until he cant take it anymore
Once, he had a dream, a strange indeed.. the dream was about 4 people. They have the same blue-ish or golden hair, yet.. zakk was the only with blue ish hair?
The oldest woman had golden hair
The second oldest male had purple-ish blonde tone
The second youngest had blonde hair with pink ish effect,
The youngest shared the same traits as the Second youngest
But why was Zakk different than them
It felt like as if they were never there
A voice called out
"They are your siblings, each one in each nation"
The voice allured zakk, he stared at them, and looked at himself. He was... He was... Disgusting.. He was too unbearable to be with. Another dream also came into his mind,
Everyone was surrounding him with negative comments
"Can you shut up about your inventions for once?"
"Youre so annoying!"
"Please stop"
"Ew who wants you"
If people really felt that way to him, then why dont they just tell it to him in person? So he would just leave them alone? Why make the trouble of making you suffer with the boring voice of him? Just tell him! He will listen!
Another dream also occurred, but ue was alone in the dark, a voice reach to him
"They dont remember you.."
"You are nothing to them"
"They never knew you exist"
"They are fake"
They kept saying things about them, until you break. But whats the cause of breaking your own sanity for something unrealistic as this?
So please just stop
Just stop
"OH IF YOU TRY TO SYMPATHETIC I MIGHT JUST DIE FROM IT THAN FROM OLD AGE!"
Im trying to care for people cant you see?
"JUST GO JUMP OFF A CLIFF OR SOMETHING!"
I would if i can
"YOU WOULD DO WHAT EVERYONE TELLS YOU DONT YOU?!"
yes i do, i let people tear me apart as long as their satisfied
"DOES IT LOOK LIKE I CARE?"
Because i need to care,
"JUST DISAPPEAR ALREADY"
I want to.. i want to... Please...please
I started making invetions as a coping mechanism for my emotions, i build a machine.. a machine that can finally let me leave this world... Why... Why are you stopping me.. why are you stopping me!? I CANT...
I stared at my machine blankly, the pain.
I want it to be gone
Does it mean i have to give my life?
...
....
.....
My own family forgot about me.. my friends will forget who i am
I will be nothing
......
People call him a liar, hes a liar! Put the blame on him. HE DID IT!
HE DID IT
HE MADE THAT MESS
HE THREW THAT POT AND BROKE IT
HE MADE MISTAKES
HE... HE!
its all about Zakk! Why did you break that?
Why am i here
I wanna go back
I wanna be innocent
I wanna be a happy child
I wanna be with my parents
I wanna see them
I wanna attach myself to them
Please
Please
Just leave me alone you stupid voices
Can you stop
I dont wanna hear it anymore
I dont wanna
Hear
Anything
From
You
Anymore...
........
Everything is tiring
I cant do anything
It hurts
Why does it hurt?
Im not hurt?
Why am i crying
Who am i
I try to remember
I remember....
...
..
.
..
...
I dont know
I-i cant remember!?
why can i remember ?!
I dont wanna forget
I dont wanna disappear
I dont wanna be anything
Let me be something!
Please!
