A Magical AroAce

Sana POV

Living my daily life there was always something I never understood. I never understood why people always spoke highly about sex. Like what's so great about it? Even with my friends, even they talk about sex and how it's something to be desired. Not often of course as most of them are minors like I am. The older ones mentioning it more than the younger ones. It was more just me and Ui outside of the conversations of sex. But she did tell me about her romantic fantasies. They were really cute. And if I'm honest I never saw why the others would talk about sex. So I went on google and looked up what I've been experiencing and I came across the word asexual. Little to no sexual attraction. This definitely is me one hundred percent. But I guess not wanting sex doesn't really matter for me does it? Not like anyone who would wanna date me can even see me anyway unless it's a magical girl. And even still romance isn't for me. It's cute and I love seeing my friends and the other magical girls and other people in romantic relationships but it isn't something I'd want personally. When I googled this I got aegoromantic. I guess I'm an aroace, an AA battery. I don't mind being the way I am, I don't know any different. As long as I'm happy it doesn't really matter right?

So today I woke up with the intentions to come out to my friends. I mean if I'm uncomfortable by  mentions of. Ui knows already as she was never in the sex conversations the others had. She asked why I wasn't part of the conversation talking about it as well. She does know about sex as she is at the age where you learn about those things. But she's too young for the conversations if she wants to participate. And when she asked I told her how I felt about the idea of sex. How the thought of it was repuslive to me. I was good friends with her sister and now I was becoming closer friends with her as well.

So starting my day off after waking off I got dressed, styled my hair, and left my room. Everyone was in the living room/dining room area. I had to gain the confidence to speak up and say what I needed to say. I'm so nervous right now. I know I'm just talking about myself bjt that's why I'm so nervous here. After all I got judged for my interests in the past, sure it was before I met these wonderful people, but it's still enough to affect me for a while in my life.

I took a few deep breaths before speaking up.

"Um... hello. Can I please say something?" My voice sounded just as nervous as I felt.

They all looked at me and said varying forms of "yes/sure" telling me I can carry on speaking. So I continued with what I had to say.

"I recently did some self discovery and I learned that I'm asexual and aromantic. More specifically apothisexual and aegoromantic. This means the idea of sex repulses me and I'mnot interested in romancefor myself personally but I still do love a great romance story and seeing others in romantic relationships. This is just who I am and it's all I know. I don't need pity for not feeling things others do. All I want is support. I may not feel sexual attractionor desires that I've heard about but that doesn't make me any less of a person. And just because I don't want a romantic relationship myself doesn't mean I'm also any less of a person. I'm me and that's all. That's all I ever should be. It's all I ever will be."

I stopped talking. I explained everything. I didn't wanna say more. It was rare of me to talk this much. Last time I spoke this much was when I was telling Iroha about every Mr Purrs A Lot episode to ever exist first to last.

But all my friends seemed accepting. They all said something to me.

"It's totally okay to be who you are Sana. Thank you for telling us all of this information on yourself. Of course we support you." Yachiyo said to me. This comment made me a lot more calm.

"There's no reason you shouldn't feel anything less than a person Sana. Everyone is different and we experience different things. And I kind of understand your asexuality. I'm under the umbrella myself. While I instantly feel romantically attracted to people, I never felt sexual attraction until I got to know the person I like romantically well enough. Though I don't technically have to like the person romantically first for this to happen. I just have to get to know them. And I'm homo-romantic. To put things simply I'm a homo-romantic demi-sexual. Also we are technically all part of the LGBTQIA+ community here. I can tell you Yachiyo is a lesbian" Iroha said. This also made me feel more comfortable. I also felt more understood. Also Yachiyo kinda made a face of "you just outted me before I could say something myself" to Iroha when she outted her sexuality. Makes sense as she probably wanted to say it herself.

"I'm glad I was called over here to hear this. It's really important to find out who you are. I support you completely. Also if you're curious on what I am I'm reciprosexual. I only feel sexual attraction when someone feels it for me first and I know they are sexually attracted to me. I'm also under the ace umbrella" Tsuruno said. She's also ace, how comforting. And she's happy she was called over to hear me come out. That's also very comforting for me.

"So wait this is just me trying to understand. How do you not feel sexual attraction at all or romantic attraction? And how can you like romance stories despite this? I'm greysexual so I do feel sexual attraction quite often actually. Well as often as I can at my age. But my sex drive isn't much. It's there but barely. So of course I support, I just wanna know how you can feel nothing at all and like romance stories with wanting romance" Typical Felicia. Supportive but still with her comments that could come off as rude.

"I just never have felt anything. It's that simple. And ss for romance. I love the idea of romance and I find it really cute but it just isn't for me to experience first hand. Does this help?" I responded.

"I see. Yes. That does help. It's easier to understand." She responded back. It's also nice to know that she's also in the ace spectrum.

"You already knew that I supported you Sana. After all you came out to me first. As for me and what I am, all I know is I'm romantically attracted to my best friends. As for a sexuality I'mnot sure yet. I'm too young to really know fully. All I know is I romantically like girls. And I'm in a nice poly romantic relationship. I guess I'll label my sexuality as questioning" Ui said. Of course  supported me. She was the first to know. I'm glad she was here. She helped me get to this point. If not for her talking to me I wouldn't have had the courage to come out.

After my coming out and the small coming out party, we all had some fun together going out. We went to go shopping together to celebrate this new thing bringing us all together. Everything feels perfect. Everything is perfect. I feel the happiest I've ever been. What started out as a nerve-wracking day has turned into the best day of my life. The best day besides the day I made these wonderful friends. My current life honestly couldn't be more perfect.