I hurt more than I care to say
My inner child is crying
For he remembers all to well
The feel of hope that's dying
When I was young, well into teens
That gawky, awkward stage
I had no skill to speak to girls
Lost in hormonal rage
I felt the draw but had no luck
With maidens in my class
Too smart by half, except in love
Made me to look the ass
I could discern the social norms
My march a half step out
I tried too hard to be Joe Cool
But never had the clout
One painful time there was a girl
To whom I showed my heart
She smiled her brightest "mean girl"smile
Then tore my heart apart
Once burnt, twice shy, yes I'm that guy
I learned my lesson well
It took some age and many years
To break that evil spell
At least I thought I had, 'til now
Another lovely girl
Who's looked my way with steamy eyes
And set my world a whirl
She gives me hope then goes away
Without a word for weeks
When I'm resigned to loneliness
My God, What's this? She speaks
A sad surprise that sparks the flame
I know will only burn
My logic mind can't seem to fight
When my heart starts to yearn
It's not my way to press my will
The lady must say yes
I'm patient and in pain again
And will be so I guess
Until such time as I can find
A way to stop the hope
I'll be that boy from long ago
I guess I'll have to cope
Richard Higley © March 2 2013
