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People judge me coz they find my life boring. But waking up to this familiar feeling every day of my boring life as what people say, for me, is euphoria.
Opening my eyes to this beautiful, gorgeous, and godly image I always see and touch since day 1, I only wish for it to come true. Coz these banners and posters couldn't match my imagination of him. Oh well, a fangirl like me could only dream, right? Of course!
They say this is an obsession. Collecting posters, postcards, chibi merch, banners, attending fan meetings and all things related to fangirling is an obsession. It's not, for me, it's my therapy and my happiness. They say I wasted money on a dead investment. But why would they judge me that way when collecting stuff and supporting my idol is my happiness and my comfort?
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Wang He Di, is a very popular and successful Chinese idol with the screen name Dylan Wang - is the most followed and favorite artist. For years that I have been following him and supporting him since his idol days, I learned the ways of his life and how and what he is, as a normal citizen and off cam. And I could say, he deserves everything that he has today.
Yes, I stalk. One of the common struggles of being a fangirl is stalking. To know what's up and what's new and means I should be active and enthusiastic. I have gained new friends and got to meet other people from different countries who have the same interests and support Dylan Wang. And we only have one dream, that is to meet him personally and have a good conversation with him.
His management doesn't allow him to have an official fandom. That's why almost all of his fans are very eager to go to his live shows, and fan meets even on his film or series shooting. And whenever I am at that same event, I always didn't get the chance to exchange a simple Hi or Hello. Or even shake his hands. Or even sign my favorite shirt or have a picture of him. I am always there on the sidelines, watching and observing him enjoy the attention of his fans.
How I wish I can get close to him. How I wish I could touch him for real, not just on posters and banners but in real life. His strict management implied that he is not allowed to hold hands or shake hands with anyone except his co-actors. But despite my eagerness to get close to him, I know that if he chooses to disobey his management rules might be the reason for a career end. And what's more intriguing and disappointing, he's not even allowed to have a girlfriend or just seen with girls during his contract. Or else, his career will end and his contract will be breached.
Realizing that, how his management set the rules for him gives him no freedom to express himself publicly and normally. I wonder if he is happy doing the things he loves behind the camera. I wonder if he spends a lot of quality time with his family. Or does he have a girlfriend that he keeps from the public eye? Well, according to my source and research, he does have a girlfriend and is in a stable and serious relationship but just keeps low-key so his management won't intervene.
Dylan is so good at acting and performing, he is a rising star of this generation so I understand why his management holds strict rules for him, just to be on top. Because he is one of those artists who have a very promising career and future. Many idolize him, and somehow, adore him because of his physique, his manly smile and deep voice, his perfect jaw and strict eyebrows, his body that's ripped with perfectly toned muscles, and my favorite, his red and sexy lips that are always enticing.
When you're a fan girl, you always don't get close to your idols. With his million followers and fans, he may not recognize me now, but with my best effort to support him, I know one day he will.
