Tmnt street punks - Ghost x Y/n

A Nightmare

In the dream:

It was a normal day, the clouds were covering up the sun and it looked like it was gonna rain.

You didn't have the...best relationship with your parents,especially  your  little sister. You two would always fight every single day, and when ever your parents got involved they would always side with you little sister even thought they know damn well it was your little sisters fault,And that shit was emotionally draining.

Though today was a different day today was the day you finally snapped,despite how depressed you were. You were like a ghost as you saw your younger self screaming at your parents with tears in your eyes. you saw every moment  were you had a fight with them.It was like a flashback.

The first seen in my dream was in my old child hood room

 "IT'S ABOUT YOU,AND HOW MADE ME FEEL WHEN I'M WITH YOU.OKAY? I FEEL LIKE I'M STUPID , AND WORTHLESS AN I'M NEVER RIGHT. you know what I realized is that IT'S NOT MY FAULT, You know what I realized? THAT IT'S NOT MY FAULT" , "Y/n sweetie we-" my mother tried to speak but was cut off  " I WANT .YOU .TO CARE, I DON'T WANT YOU TO JUST EXEMPT IT, LIKE THAT'S THE WAY ITS SUPPOSE TO BE..." I watched as my younger self  took a moment to catch there breath trying to hold back tears. 

"When I'm with you, I FEEL like I'm nothing.... heh...  feel like I'm nothing"  I tried my best to hold back my tears at the sad sight. My dad tried to touch my shoulder but My younger self flinched away violently "Y/n please we just-" , "That's I flinch when you go to touch me,thats way I never touch you,Why I never even think about it, because when I start to,  't just reminds me that I'm not good enough"

The seen faded away and I was now In the dining room, were you were arguing with your sister about a stupid break up she had. " oh what ever Y/n what do you know about pain", " oh please I'm the oldest I know more then you anyways", "oh really then, y/n care to share",my mother said " Yea Y/n, care to share", " LIFE IS PAIN, I wake up ever morning and I'm in pain, I go to school in pain, Do you know how many time I wanted to just give up,do you know how many time's I thought about ending it" I watched with sorrow in my eyes as I watched my younger self storm of to my room. then it faded away.

I was now in the living room. I remember this argument very clearly as it was the last argument we had. The whole month you and  S/n (sister's name) graduated,And all my parent's could talk about was her, They always did this when  an event came up, Even though you were the main one there, they still managed to  make it all about  S/n.

"Uhg, DO YOU GUYS EVER  HONESTLY SHUT. UP ABOUT S/N. IT'S ALWAYS 'oh hows s/n, I can't tonight I'm hanging with s/n, I'm so worried about s/n' ANS SHE'S ALWAYS  5 FUCKING FEET away from y'all, it pathetic" My younger self was about to  walk away till my mother spoke again " you can't always be the center of attention y/n, the world don't revolve around you", " why have I ever been the center of attention, you guy don't even notice every good thing that  I've done, I have been a straight A student ever since  10th grade, And I have been depressed for Months now, HOW THE HELL DO YOOU EXPECT ME TO THANK YOU PEOPLE FOR ANYTHING WHEN YOU'VE DONE NOTHING FOR ME.you know, I learned how drive, I learned out to shave,I even learned how to fight, with out you.like when have you ever been there to support me or help me"

I looked at there faces and they looked guilty .

"you wanna know the worst part about all this,is that no matter how neglective you guys are, I still love you all.... and I hate myself for it, AND I HATE ALL OF YOU FOR IT, you people are nothing and never will be nothing in my book "

the seen faided away and I started falling into fire, I squeezed my eyes shut waiting for me to hit the floor, but heard screaming instead.

There was fire, fire every were.I was running out with my baby sister ,till she pulled me back. "what about mommy and daddy", "mommy and daddy are gone now lets go"  I tried to pull her again but she refused " I'm going back, you go one with out me". Then s/n ran off into the fire, I tried to go after her but a peace of the sealing fell down creating a barrier between you to. 

"S/N"

"no" I whispered, I was sitting up straight with my arm out reached for air and my other had on my chest. I woke up with a gasp my heart beating so fast that It felt like it was shaking my whole body,I was panting and my nose was stuffy. I took deep breaths tying to calm my self down, I looked around to see I wasn't In my bed, I was in ghost bed.

He was sound asleep right next to me. I carefully made my way out of bed and up stairs.

I made my way to the kitchen to get me a juice.I sat down on the counter and took a sip of juice.I stared at the Christmas tree that was standing right of me. I was interrupted from my thought when I heard a deep raspy voice come from my right. 

I looked over to see Ghost he looked tired as hell but still managed to look sexy. "why'd you leave" the tall male rubbed his eye "hey" I greeted. "are you okay" I paused at the question not sure how to answer the question. Ghost stood In front of my and cupped my face ever so gently.

I stared up into his Ruby red eyes, getting lost into them but snapped out of it to my trance to my name being called "Y/N is every thing okay" ghost had a hint of worry in his eye "'m fine just had a bad dream", I tared my face away from his grip and looked down  "wanna talk about it" he asked.

I looked up from my lap. " have I ever told you about what happend to my family", you dont have to tell me now-", "no,no. you deserve to know". The punk sat right beside you waited for me to start. "you know I never the... best relationship with my family, we would always fight and never apologize the next day.I was depressed my whole entire child hood, my parents would never pay attention to me, it was always about my sister, they always took her side of the story even though they know damn well I'm right.But... there was a fire and they all died,I tried to save them but failed. I vowed an oth when I was younger saying 'I would protect my family no matter how much pain they cause me or make me feel like I'm useless'. And you wanna know the worst part about all this is that the last words I said to them were 'you wanna know the worst part about all this,is that no matter how neglective you guys are, I still love you all.... and I hate myself for it, AND I HATE ALL OF YOU FOR IT, you people are nothing and never will be nothing in my book'". There was silence, letting single a tear run down my cheek, " and I regret everything, that's why I envy you and your brothers relationship,Like how the hell do you shoot someone and they forgive you, How the hell do you do you say face them and say sorry after saying the most brutal thing in the world to your own brother and they for give you.".

Ghost hugged me and softly rubbed my back "were not perfect you know,one time Rebel and Swift got into an argument and they got physical, it took a week to get them to apologize to each other" ghost stared playing with my hair as i softly sniffed "really", " yup one time me and swift got into a fight and I accidentally slipped up and said your the reason for mom's death", I looked up at ghost the best i could "mhm,I said it,we try not to get into fights- well loud fights cause it scares M.C., the last time we fought we were yelling  and throwing things at each other... specifically glass objects, he ended up having a panic attack".

I looked back down and thought for a bit, "what else did they do to you" the question caught I off guard for a moment buy you answered.  Me and ghost had a very long conversation, it was nice, emotional but nice. We stopped talking when it was starting to get late.I desided to go up to my bed instead of sleeping with ghost.

"y/n"

"huh?"

" I love you"

"...love you too Ghost"