Right From Wrong Book 1 ( Rewritten )

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            " Diao " he asks confused. " Don't come near me " Diao says quickly. " Diao, this isn't your fault " he says. " No, it is! I couldn't control myself Kuea! I hurt you ". He shakes his head no, saying " That's your hunger. Not you. It's just a little setback Diao. This isn't your fault! If anything it's my fault because I tried to touch you after you warned me ".

             Diao doesn't reply to him. Instead Diao rushes past him, trying to rush towards his room. So he quickly rushes to Diao, hugging him from behind. " Please Diao, this isn't your fault. Don't make me stay away from you " he says quickly, starting to cry once again. " Let me go " Diao says. " Not until you understand that it's not your fault! Don't lock me out " he shouts.

            " I hurt the one person I swore to never hurt! This is my fault " Diao says before shoving him off of him, causing him to trip and fall. He falls on to his back. He doesn't get up when he hears Diao run off. He just lays there crying.

            Top is quickly by his side, making him sit up. " It's not his fault " he cries out. " We all know it's not but you have to give him time " Top says, pulling him into a hug. " I should have trusted my instincts " he says, moving away from Top and standing up. " Kuea " Win asks concerned.

            " I'll be in mine and Hia's room " he says before walking away towards the room. Once he reaches the room he immediately closes the door behind him before he goes and lays down in the bed. " It's just a setback. He just needs time. It's going to be ok " he whispers to himself as he cries.

He pulls the blanket completely over his head, wanting to just hide away from the world as he breaks down. He feels so horrible and upset. Why did he reach out towards Diao. " I'm such an idiot. I'm so stupid " he says to himself.

The sound of the door opening pulls him from his thoughts. " Kuea " he hears Hia Lian say gently as the door closes. He doesn't respond, only listening as Hia Lian walks towards him. " kuea, baby " Hia Lian says as he sits down on the bed, next to him.

            " I messed up " he manages to say through his tears. " This is not your fault. Just like it's not Diao's fault. This is only a setback in the progress you guys have made " Hia Lian says, gently pulling the blanket off of his head.

           " But it is my fault Hia. I'm the one to scratch my arm on a sharp rock. I'm the one who tried to touch Diao even though he already warned me. It's all my fault " he cries out. " You blame yourself for everything that goes wrong. When it's not your fault. This is something we all will have to help you with " Hia Lian says gently.

           " No matter how I look at it, I only see that it's my fault. And now, I'm paying the consequences " he quietly cries out. Hia Lian pulls him closer, making him lay his head on his lap. " Remember how you blamed yourself for Diao getting hurt by your father during the fight. How upset you were " Hia Lian says as he starts to gently play with his hair.

            " That's how Diao feels about this situation right now. While you feel similar to how Diao felt when hearing you say it's your fault when it's really not " Hia Lian says. He only listens to Hia Lian talk as he looks at the bandage on his wrist. Blood has soaked the bandage already.

             " There's bound to be setbacks along the road when you are getting used to a major change like you guys are going through " Hia Lian says. " I had a feeling. Like something was going to go wrong at any moment. I could already tell Hia " he says quietly as he gently pushes his finger on the blood stained bandages, tracing the blood with his finger.

            He winces in pain as he traces the blood in the bandage. " You didn't know. You could have never guessed that this would have happened. No one could have predicted it " Hia Lian says, gently grabbing ahold oh his wrist. Making him stop tracing the blood stained bandage.

            " Hia, can you drive me to my house and then take me to Diao's as well. Just so I can grab stuff as a distraction " he quietly asks. " We can do that. We just need to tell the others we'll be out " Hia Lian says. " Don't let Diao know. If we surprise him with things of his, then maybe he'll feel better " he says quietly.

            " Alright, then let's go kitten " Hia Lian says. He slowly makes himself sit up. " I'll let everyone know. We should probably spend the night there because of how late it'll get " Hia Lian says before walking out of the room.

            Once Hia Lian is out of the room he takes a deep breath to try and collect himself. He does this until he stops crying. " Let's use this as a distraction Kuea " he quietly tells himself. He then quickly walks towards the dining room.

            When he gets there, Win gently pulls him into a hug. " Take however long you need Kuea. I'll be here making sure Diao is ok " Win says as he gently pats his back. " Make sure he eats " he says quietly. " Of course. I am also sending a few blood bags with you and Lian " Win says, pulling away from the hug.

            He quickly puts on his shoes as the others come over to him. " We are just one call away. If you need anything or want to know how Diao is doing, just text or call us " Black says. He nods his head.

            Top walks over towards him, giving him his new phone. " Don't hesitate to check up on Diao. I know how much you care about him " Top says gently. " Thank you " he says as Top pulls him into a hug. " Remember Kuea. We are all here for you. Don't make yourself go through this all alone. I'm always ready to help you whenever I need to Kuea. Even if you get upset and shout at me, I will continue to try to help you feel better ".

            He begins to silently cry because of what Top has said to him. " P'Top " he quietly says, pulling away from the hug. " It'll be ok. It's just a setback " Top says, wiping away his tears. " You guys better leave if you want to make it there before late evening " Top says. He can only nod his head before turning to Hia Lian.

            " Let's go " Hia Lian says, gently grabbing ahold of his hand and pulling him outside, towards the car. Once they are both in the car and buckled up, he gives Hia Lian his address so he can use GPS. " I'm going to try and use this as a distraction. Can you help distract me while we are away from the house " he says quietly.

            Hia Lian holds on to his hand, gently squeezing it as he drives. " I'll do that. I'll do any little distraction I can think of " Hia Lian says teasingly, already starting to distract him. It causes him to smile as he takes a deep breath. " I feel like I'm going to regret asking you that " he quietly jokes.

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