I was raised having a hard time expressing myself to someone.
I thought love is not for me because it keeps breaking me... from my father to my present partners.
I used to avoid directions that lead me to love. I am scared of being hurt and being left alone, again.
Not until...
Love found me and someone who knows how to calm my storm. Someone who brings peace in me and changes my stance about love.
"Natania, tulala kana naman. Kanina pa kita tinatawag," I was distracted by my friend.
I didn't know na lumalalim na naman ang pag-iisip ko. "I'm sorry. What is it again?"
"Ang sabi ko, let's enjoy this party! Minsan lang tayo magkaroon ng break from work. Sulitin na natin," she was shouting because of the loud music.
Kinuha ko ang drink na in-order ko sa counter at sumunod sa kanya. Lumingon ulit ako sa kanina ko pa tinititigan.
It was the place where we first met.
"You're preoccupied again, my dearest friend. I thought you finally moved on, and were ready to start a new beginning?"
I rolled my eyes and ignore her. I didn't mean all the things I said to her, I just can't forget all the memories. It is one of the best feeling ever, remembering those days.
"Dear, flirt with that guy! Kanina pa nakatingin sa'yo, huwag ka naman mag-feeling mannequin d'yan! Stop that cold act and start the heat!" pilit akong tinutulak nito pero nagpapapigil ako.
"I came here to drink not to flirt, Lau. Ikaw na lang," I clarified while giving her a serious glance.
Tinigilan niya na rin ako kapag tapos no'n at iniwan ako sa table namin. I'm just watching the people on the dance floor, enjoying their night.
Not until my eyes landed again in a corner that made me space out for a moment.
I was bothered when I saw a guy staring at me. Bahagya kong naibaba ang baso na hawak ko at biglang bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko.
"Go na, Natania! Enjoy the night, don't just stare!" lasing na sigaw ni Lau. "Go for love!"
Uminit ang pisngi ko sa sinabi nito. Para akong isang yelong natunaw nang makita ko siya. Yes, Lau. It is my love.
I realized that we really never realize how frozen we are until someone starts to melt our ice.
I sighed, "What a plot twist you were."
xoxo
