prompt: based of when darren said he was insecure of his nose
kinda extreme/TRIGGER WARNINGGGGG!!!!!
warning: self broken bone, angst to fluff, cutt1ng, mental voices, bulimic person,identification problems, drug usage, extreme topics!!
also Char being Darren bestestestest friend
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Darren's pov
I read the second question and told the group "What's your biggest insecurity" they turned to the camera as i looked at them, everyone besides Ryan had answered it was my turn "uhh my nose" I admitted "i would be too" Oliver joked 'does it really look that bad?..' i thought i mean it isn't so bad right? maybe it is i snapped out my thoughts and tried to be my regular self, trying my hardest to suppress my sadness and anxiousness, i've been trying my best to keep a good looking body, diets, isolating food from myself, working out but it never seems right, i was deep in thought but still as active with the group so I to time to think whenever they weren't talking to me
After what felt like hours, the camera was turned off and we cleaned up and went inside, i went straight to my room to get my useful buddy, a razor..walking into my bathroom and searching for it, finding it and pushing up my shirt over my head dropping it on the floor taking the razor and pressing it down and sliding enough to break the first layer of skin, making more and more on fresh, old and healing marks all over my body, my stomach, arms, thighs, I washed off the razor and put it back I went down to the bottom drawer, that's it.
yes that's it.
MORE!
really? those little marks? what a failure.
take it mistake
they ordered and insulted me i just want them to be gone!, I felt so heavy bursting out my bathroom as i saw bugs and random objects moving on its own, my words slurred i saw so many colors...
Manager bae's pov
Me, Ty and the bots were just chilling until we heard multiple thumps "I'll check" he reassures us before he even took a step it was Darren who technically banged against every stair, Ty was first jogging to Darren, then came the rest "Darren what the fuck?!" He looked high and drunk slurring on every word, he got up and ran out the door but he was almost naked! but something bra-like was covering his chest and he had boxers on Regie, Ty and me were first out following us were the rest he was heading toward the street a car came but Regie was faster he grabbed Darren and pinned him down but it doesn't look like he he could hold him for long Kane, Oliver and Ryan helped pin him down "Get off of me you fuckers!" he slurred "we have to get him to a hospital!" Sebastian yelled everyone tried their best to restrain him up it wasn't easy with him turning and twisting and cussing us out once we got him in the car he was in the backseat restrained by Kane and Regie "Fuck you!!" he cried, he was crying and cursing us out in chinese and english as we made it, he was asleep.
3rd pov
"He is...." the doctor slightly stopped his sentence as the medics were called into Darrens room again his loud screaming and banging made a large crowd of doctors and medics they were carrying him somewhere with him crying, yelling and cursing, his nose was bleeding the members were slightly crying so much was happening he was being restrained and given a shot to calm himself down(behavior hospital memories)
back to the members
"what did we do wrong" an endless silence was loud....
2 weeks after
Darrens pov
I felt so warm as everyone was gathered around while Oliver made dinner, they starting to watch me more carefully now and i can't use my bathroom until they complete the whatever thing, its like childproof shit for an adult "Dinner's ready!" he shouts from the kitchen, everyone moved off me to go eat, "Cmon dar" justin sleepily slurred "okay okay" i felt more cared for, they started to lessen the rude jokes but still tried their best to make me laugh, I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety and appeared to have gender identification problems so the boys bought me everything from skirts to shorts to pants and from crops tops to tank tops to T shirts including Panties to boxers just so if i feel feminine and masculine that day it changes and they still like the outfits! "hey darren there's something i- well we wanted to tell you" Oliver stated i hummed in question, "Will you-" Regie interrupted "Will you be our lovely boyfriend?" oliver smacked his head with a wooden spatula I- i couldn't believe it "This has to be a joke" everyone confirmed it wasn't a stupid "play toy" confession that was fake to embarrass me "Oh my fucking god! Yes! I love all of you too!!" i shouted blushing after i realized i said it out loud "Awww you're so red!" "So pretty.." "You're literally glowing!" i covered my face with my hands but they were removed "Don't cover your face pretty boy" Ryan said holding my hands and kissing both of them
with Bae and Ty
bae pov
"they're so cute!" Ty chuckled "yeah baby you know it" I blushed a little "Do not call me baby i'm still mad at you!" I ordered him "Awww baby you'll get cuddles tonight okay" Ty reassured, rolling his editing chair to me and patted my head, i kissed him forehead "Baby boy c'mere" he playfully said, i stood up and got on his lap and snuggled into his neck rolling us together back to his editing setup " 'm wanna stay here forever i said yawning as i closed my eyes Tyler rubbed my back "I love you so much TyTy" i said tiredly half asleep, he cooed at me "I love you too dear" as he finished up he settled us on the bed, sleeping together.
(A THOUSAND WORDS ON SPOT BABYYY also for your info these don't count because they are little author notes --MK Zi)
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