•beautiful pain•

Episode 1: Suicide

It was the most intense pain he had ever felt in body, while also being the most calming and peaceful feelings in brain.

He had wondered why he didnt do this long ago. He could feel his heart beating louder and louder each step, desperately spilling blood everywhere.

He did great all of his classes. He did. But he knew his heart couldnt catch up.

Looking down on both of his arms to see it full of bandages. If he was lucky enough, he only had a few minutes before he lost consciousness, then a few more before it was all over.

On the counter, across the bathroom, his phone started buzzing. Jay ignored it, in fact, he doesnt even know that it was buzzing.
His mind was beginning to slow down, the blood flow slowing as it knew it didn't hold a chance against the sharp surgical knife Jay had managed to swipe from the hospital.

If he find him, he hoped that his mother would blame hesrelf for the cause of what she did to her son.

His vision has became black. He couldnt feel anything, he could only feel his legs going numb as his heart desperately trying to keep him alive..

And then he felt he was falling.

'Finally...'

A few slow, tiring blinks told Jay what was happening. Finally, after all these years, he'd be able to see his uncle again. They could talk about everything, and finally reconnect. The view of his white shirt soaked so much in blood it could be resold as a red one, and the way his arms were squeezing out blood. It was an okay life, hopefully there will not be another.