CARL MARSHALL
I was finally home and taking my tie off when I was hit with guilt like a ton of bricks. I can't believe I lied to Thea about the tie. I didn't wear it because my nephew wanted me to wear it but because I couldn't find a tie that was already tied and I was already really late to work. I feel stupid now. But there's something about her I cannot shake off. She's so happy. She's so independent, pretty and smart. She's perfect. The moment I saw her enter the elevator I knew something changed, that this wasn't going to be a normal project. I think I like her. I barely know anything about her though. I don't know if she's already dating someone or if she is even into men.
Maybe i should try talking to her more and grow my friendship then confess. That way I'll also know if she feels the same way, though that is highly unlikely. Falling onto my bed and getting up to make myself dinner.
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It's been a week and i cannot keep it in anymore. The more I see the more I want to touch her, the more I want to hold her and the more I want to be with her. I really like her, I like the way she loves the rain and the way she dresses. I like how she is short but still really confident. I like how her head would rest in the crook of my neck when she's wearing heels. I like how she can run in them and not fall or even trip. I love how she smells different everyday, how she unknowingly bits her lips when she's really focused on her work.
Even after all this I still cannot find her instagram or if she is dating someone. I have her number but that is of no use. She looks like an open book but she's not one book, she's a series with many books i still have to find. I could take the easy route or the hard one. Just confess my feelings and hope for the best. The closest I came to her was when she hugged me after work when we said goodbye. She smelled like roses that day, with those pink lips I couldn't get my eyes off of.
It's Monday again, they say, an architect's dream is an engineer's nightmare. But for me it's an opportunity, a nightmarish opportunity but still an opportunity. I'm just happy that I got to see her today. Our teams meet up every Monday and Friday to discuss all the goals we need to achieve and on Friday to discuss what we have achieved and what to do next week. We have another week before we have to send the first building draft to the client and the project manager. That won't be hard because Thea is our project manager, she is just helping the architect team with the project since she's done this before.
I pick a simple tie, asking my buddy Adrian to tie the tie for me. I know it's stupid, not wanting to tie a simple tie. I hate tying my own tie, it's frustrating and annoying. I really hope Thea knows how to do it so she can tie it for me everyday. Her hands around my neck and her face really close to mine. Savoring that touch like I would never touch her again.
Adrian looks at me like I was imagining us having sex. He quickly ties the tie and backs off like he just touched the food on a plate while washing dishes. I sigh and adjust the tie. "I don't want to fuck you, you dont have to back off like that" he looks at me and shakes his head "better to be safe than sorry" scoffing i go to the kitchen, i totally forgot Adrian spent the night at my place, we were gaming most of the night.
I need my daily fix of coffee, I like it black, no milk and very little sugar. People find it weird and even disgusting. I know Thea didn't like it, she accidentally drank from my cup last monday and pretended nothing happened, that was the closest our lips touched. From her expression I knew she liked her's exactly the opposite of mine or didn't even drink coffee.
We were visiting the site today, getting a gist of the place and the basic markups and stuff. Better wear my work boots, it's been raining a lot lately, rain's the worst for building a building. I quickly pick up my bag and yell for Adrian to hurry up. I get it that he isn't a morning person but that doesnt give him the excuse of being late.
