Abusive Loving

A Change Of Heart

"Hm?" Renji turned his head around to see a car pulling out of its spot. He shrugged it off, not giving it much thought. Renji faced the door again and inhaled, then exhaled one big sigh. As he stepped up to the door, he reached over to the door bell that was dimly lighted in white. His index finger pressed the dim bell and from the outside he could hear the echo of the *Ding-dong*. You, thinking it was Kuroo for some reason, came walking over to the door and reached out to its knob. With your hand placed on the doorknob, you turned the clip with your other hand and pulled back the door. As soon as you opened it, you were faced to face with a bouquet of flower. They were white carnations, your favorite flower along with color. [Can choose different flower/color]. The only person who knew what your favorite color and flower was, was...

"Renji!" When you looked up, you saw a handsomely groomed Renji with a deep red spread across his cheeks. His eyes were averting your as well. How could you be so careless as to open the door like that without checking first? But it wasn't really your fault. Renji hadn't shown his face at your place in almost a month, so of course you would let your guard down. You starred up at him with terror show brightly in your eyes. 'His cheeks are red. I-is he drunk again?' You couldn't speak.

"Hey, (f/n)..." He scratched the back of his head with his free hand. "I-Uh...I brought you your favorite flowers. Carnations."

"Why are you...here...? Everything was just fine...up until now." You mumbled. You could feel the tears starting to well up in your sockets once again. The past memories of his visits started to flow up within your head. Your words stung Renji a bit, but it was completely understandable. "Please go home!" Two wet streaks started to stream down on either sides of your face. He looked so intimidating and serious and stern, it was scaring you.

"I will, but not without saying this first."

"What are talking about? Say what?" You trembled out.

"I...I'm getting help."

"Eh?"

"I'm getting help. I've been going to anger management sessions, and it's helping me, alot."

"Anger management? You're lying! You just beat up on and raped me not even a month ago!" You shouted out out in trying to identify his lie. 

"I know! That night was just a moment of weakness." With his loud booming voice echoing in your ears, you flinched. When he saw you do so, he calmed himself down. "Sorry I scared you."

"Why? Why are you doing this now? What are you trying to do? You don't show up for about a month, and then you just pop up out of nowhere with my favorite flowers in your hands, saying that you're getting help!? What are you up to Renji!"

"I'm trying to atone for what I've done in the past. I'm trying to make things better between us. I don't want to be kept away from my son nor you for that matter."

"'Make things better'? How are you going to 'make thing better' between us? Renji, there is no more 'us'. You threw away 'us' the moment you attacked me. You knew what you were doing."

"I did, you're right." Renji sighed. "I was afraid you were going to say that but I was prepared for it as well. It hurts, but this heartbreak is nothing compared to what I've put you through. I just don't want what I've been doing to you to be like that forever. I'm tired of treating you like crap, especially when you're far from it."

"...Is that all? If so, I'd like you to leave now." You mumbled while looking down at your feet. You were scared for his reply.

"It's not all I wanted to tell you, but it is better if I go now. Here, the flowers." Renji handed you the flowers and you hesitated in reaching out to them, but eventually ended up taking them. "I'll see you around." Renji gave a slight wave to you and backed up out of the door way. He then turned around and started walking off towards his car.