You Deserve Better (Jensoo/Chaesoo)

Chapter Thirty

Jennie's Pov

I am cruel.

Yeah i am, there was no denial on that, i have broked her heart many times yet I decided to act like i did nothing and play with her feelings, but what can i do i have too its not like i could do nothing about it i could but, i decided to follow, why?

I dont know either, its a question I can't answer.

Waking up beside someone I dont even love sucks and forcing yourself to have that emotion again to feel the feeling you felt in the first time that will never come back. I looked at him and it dont feel the same anymore, its all just that, like there is nothing,the feeling wasn't there anymore, the feeling of love seeing someone you used to love, the spark was not there anymore...

Yeah i am the best at giving people false hope and making them believe i love them, quite a unique and cruel skill huh, i dont even know if its a cruel or just pure evil probably.

i stand up from the bed and look around the room, yeah it doesn't feel the same, i stand up and stretch a little them walked out the room maybe breath some fresh air from the balcony.

It still amazes me how beautiful the world is from the clouds in the sky, the beautiful sunrise, and the tree leaves slowly falling down, sigh everything is so amazing yet i decided to be the worst, no someone is probably much worse than me, like 8 billion people i can't be the worse.

Yeah that's how i cheer up my self by thinking someone is probably much worse than me, quite unique but it works for me its not like im the worst worst, but really though am i?

Before i go back i notices that he is awake, but why is he on my phone he seemed annoyed, no he is I dont know angry he doesn't seemed annoyed its confusing, I cant see the contact maybe i should go in.

"Hey babe have you seen my phone?" Having to say "Babe" is just not mt thing well it is his thing I just have to go with it.

He quickly turned and hanged up the call, he just smiled at me softly, I did so too.... forcefully

Its obviously a fake smile but he bought it, so go on.

"who was that?" I asked like I don't know it was from my phone, his nervous I noticed his eyes moving around the room thinking of an excuse this guy really sigh...

"oh its nothing I got a call f-from a friend, yeah a friend!" He said with a little stutter. Horrible liar as always.

"oh really, but have you seen my phone I have to call someone" I asked he seemed annoyed and do i look like i care? no but i gotta look concered okay that seemed mean but really though...

"and who is that friend?" He asked and I could see how his eyes slowly narrowed while looking into mines. It's impressive how he went from looking like a 5 year old lying to someone as serious as a cop interviewing a criminal.

"my best friend, I havent called her since yesterday I just want to tell her I'm fine and I don't want her to worry" He just nodded and handed me my phone but still giving me "that" look, but he didn't realized is that he "gave" me my missing phone wich means he has it wich I already know.

I looked at the phone and I looked at him and the way his face turns red out of embarrassment . He stood up and stump his way out of the room, it's funny how childish he can be and maybe that's why I lost my feelings for him..

I looked at the contacts, its Jisoo damn 18 miscalls She must've been really worried sigh why did I put my phone on silent again sigh.

Should i call? maybe no, after he talked to Jisoo I should probably not.