Trust yourself ! - Inotan/Tanino

Chap 4

POV Tanjiro :

I freeze at the end of his sentence.

- ... what ?... 

Inosuke - You heard me, I won't say it twice!... it's already embarrassing to tell you..

I can't believe this... Himena is.. bullying him ?!.. It can't be.. she can't do that ! How could she do that ?! I start to boil with rage. How dares she bully Inosuke ?!

Inosuke - Tanjiro !

I get out of my head and notice that Inosuke is shaking, breathing fast and with difficulty and that his face is in tears.

- Wh-what's wrong Inosuke ?!

He tries to speak but his heavy breathing blocks him from it. Is he having a panick attack ?! He points me his throat.

- You can't breathe ?!

Inosuke - *nods*

O-ohhhh shit ! Wh-what do I do ?! His breathing WAY to fast !! How can I help him calm down ?! Come on think !! Come on come on come onnnn !! I KNOW !! I grabb his face between my hands and kiss his cheeks, then I put my arms around his neck and put my hands in his hair and I start massaging his head. He grips my shirt and tries desperately to breathe properly.

Inosuke - Tan-... Tanjiro-..

- It's okay Inosuke.. everything is alright.. I'm here. Just focus on my voice and your breathing.

Between the sobs and his gasping for breath, it should be so difficult to breathe... I hope that he'll calm down with what I'm doing. I keep talking to him and take deep breathe with him so he calms his breathing.

After some minutes, he breathed normaly and stoped sobbing and shaking so hard and he wipes his face. I'm glad my technique worked !

- You're okay now ?

Inosuke - Hm.. thanks..

He has such a small voice.. it hurts me so much to see him like this... Without realizing it, I start to sway, as if to make him sleep. I didn't stop my massage on his head, and he's really going to sleep if I keeps going. I stop moving and seperate him from me.

- Inosuke, talk to me.. please...

Inosuke - ...... I'm afraid of spiders...

- That's okay Inosuke ! Everyone is kind of scared of-

Inosuke - No ! I mean really afraid.. I don't remember how you call that.... orachna.. something.

- You mean.. you have arachnophobia ?...

Inosuke - Yeah.. I'm not gonna remember that word, it's too complicated.. *sniff* and I hate it.

Wow... I never would have thought he was arachnophobic... That's why on halloween he never comes trick or treating with us.. 

- W-well that's fine Inosuke ! It's totally okay ! I'm happy that you share this with me, really !

Inosuke - Mh.... She told me that.. she saw we got closer... and that I don't deserve you, you belong to her, I'm not good enough to be with you and-... and if I don't ge away from you she'll-...

He starts to shake again, and the scent of fear get stronger. He rub his face then puts his hands in his hair and start to rub them as well.

Inosuke - (Fuck I hate that..) *deep breathe* She said that she'll lock me in a room full of spiders..

- She'll lock you in a room full of-... Who does she think she is ?!

What in the actual fuck ?!! Is she serious right now ?! First she insults my boyfriend, then she threatens him ! And how long has this been going on ?! While I was getting angry at this bitch, I feel Inosuke hugging me, which brings me out of my desire of murder.