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14.)Elastic Heart(Namjin)

Summary: Jin though he would have his dream life with the person that he love and who loves him but when he realizes he needs help not only for himself but for the people that he loves he goes through with it and end up succeeding with not just his life but love * WARNING: This this a LONG story but I hope you like it*

Jin's POV

Love was always a fucked up thing, I've always have a dream of living with the person that I love and have a beautiful family

But some dream just don't come to a reality, I was the foolish one to fall for a dream like that and as a result I lost of the person and I love and I can't get her back until I'm clear of danger

You maybe wondering who that person is

It's my daughter, Kim Jinae

My boyfriend, Chan and I wasn't planning to have a child and I had her when I was just 18 but now I may never see her again

I never wanted my baby to be in a home let alone far away from me, Every night I think about how she is feeling without me there it breaks my heart.

You may be wondering what the hell did I do to loose my daughter, Well let's just say Chan and I wasn't doing our part

Chan had me locked up in the house ever since we had her and my home was run to shit

He would drug me and make me do unspeakable things in front of her that I regret with my life

She probably hates me up to this day and the worse thing is that she got abuse by him and I couldn't do anything because he would tie me up in a dark room 

All those times all I could've heard was her screams and cries begging for help and I couldn't save her from that devil

It's gives me nightmares every night thinking about it, I would sometimes look at myself in the mirror and throw up knowing the things that I did and I couldn't do for her

I prostituted myself every night and day just to get food for her and money for us but no matter what I tried it didn't save us from the demons that was out to get us

Soon enough the neighbor found out about the situation and told the police

 She was taken away from me at the age of 5 and I never saw her in 5 years.

As usual all I did was stay in my room staring and crying at the picture of my baby 

It was night and the thunderstorm only showed depression and grave, I was deep in my thought until I heard my door creak open

" Jin come and get your medication," Chan speak, I hate this moment, This is the 6th time for the day I'm taking this medication and it's not the good type

It's straight up powered weed, cocaine and other bad things that are not supposed to be in your system

" I don't wanna take it," I replied sobbing in between my word

" What did you say?" He asked with a threatening tone, I didn't say I word not wanting to get myself in dilemma with him

My silence seemed to annoy him and he grabbed me at the nape of my neck and pulled me to face him

" I don't appreciate back chat Jin, So shut up and take the stupid thing," He commanded me but I refuse to let that disgusting thing go down my throat

" Chan I don't want it, Chan-" I spoke but was gripped my the throat, He forcefully shoved the pills in my throat and blocked my nose

I fought hard just to get out of his grip but I couldn't get away from him, I tried spitting out from the sides of my lips but he covered my mouth until I had no choice but to swallow it